Inspired Stories

Dumb Dumb

Another vent story. One that actually makes me feel sick to my stomach.

TW: Manipulation, T slur (which isn't typed in this story), lies, almost adult friend, anger, pedophilia (?).

Proceed if you wish. DON'T FORCE YOURSELF TO IF THESE THINGS CAN TRIGGER YOU.

I guess my brother was right to tell me to let him know if the person this story is about ever did anything weird. 

"Disappointment takes us by surprise"

 When I first met him I never would've thought he would do the stuff that he did. He seemed so fucking normal.

"Even though by now I think we should have realized"

 He befriended me because he was friends with my older brother, which should've been red flag number 1. Why would a junior who was almost 18 want to befriend a freshman who was 14-15 years old? He made me believe that he wanted to be trans and become a woman, I was so supportive.

It's hard to find Lgbtq+ students at my school so it made sense that I would cling to him because we had 1 thing in common. Whenever he said something that made me uncomfortable I laughed it off, thinking that was his humor and it was similar to mine. But I shouldn't have even told him I was fine with it because then things got too personal. He would text me on Discord so much and since I have anxiety I never really replied back, and when I did I tried keeping it short because I wasn't fully comfortable. It felt like I was the only person he could depend on with being trans.

He even brought up the ex I was dating at that time, telling me that he (my ex) was a lucky guy. I'm still not even sure what he meant by that but it gives me anxiety just thinking of all the different things he could've meant by it. I feel like I should've not given him my discord because why THE FUCK DOES A KID 2 GRADES AHEAD OF ME WANT TO TALK TO ME?

"Everyone is dumb"

Every little thing he said about hanging out with me and dressing up. He even said "That would be funny if I turn on every boy and girl at school after this transformation" after he showed me a bunch of cool feminine outfits that screamed, "Yayayaya nice looking". He even wanted to go to this 80's theme dance with me and my brother, but I don't think he ever told my brother about the idea. He even wanted to do matching outfits, but he never actually went through with it. I guess it was fine because I never went anyway. I had to go to a birthday party for my younger cousin even though I bought a ticket.

"dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb"

I always thought that he was just a little weird but in a cringy kind of quirky way. I think even if I saw the red flags I would've ignored them because he was one of my first friends that wasn't one of my siblings in a long time. I wish I knew what a super senior was before my freshman year before I even befriended him. But unfortunately, the bitch who watches my life as if it's a show decided that I needed another thing to fuck me up mentally.

"La, la, la, la, la, la, la"

I never would've expected him to mess with my brain.

"Dumb"

It felt good cause I had a friend who was much older than me who could help me with any problems I had.