Nirupama

Nirupama-1

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The concept, plot, story, characters and everything in this novel are only fiction and emerged only out of the imagination of this author. If anything in this novel even a small part of it resembles, similar or identical to any living or dead or to any literature, anywhere in the world even remotely it is only coincidental and this author has no knowledge whatsoever of it and cannot take any responsibility for the same.

Nirupama

(Some Secrets May Better Remain Secrets Forever)

'I cannot bear this', 'I want to pluck my eyes out' only these two sentences were the clues which the late girl Nirupama left in writing one on a wall and one in a book quite unintentionally and involuntarily to know about the reason for her committing suicide. Her father Ranganath, detective Smaran and his niece Menaka along with Nirupama's friend Sukanya pretty well understood that Nirupama did not want the said secret to be known to anyone else. But since her father Ranganath hell bent upon knowing about the said secret, detective Smaran and his niece Menaka ruthlessly investigated the matter only to unearth the said ghastly, shocking and astounding secret which the dead girl terribly wished to keep only with her in her grave forever.

Prologue

Nirupama was in her bedroom, on the bed looking at the ceiling fan which has been revoling at its full speed. Her mind was once again filled with that extreme distress with which she has been suffering occasionally for the last fifteen days. When it happened fifteen days or so back, she was dumbfounded, shocked and just could not believe that at all. Even in her wildest imagination also, she never thought something like that could take place. How it has become possible like that, still she could not understand. From the moment it took place, this feeling started in her and sometimes it was becoming so extreme that she could not bear at all. At those times it was becoming that much unbearable, she so terribly wanted to die. The present time also was one such occasion for her.

'My god! I just can't bear it. I just can't!" she mumbled in herself. 'I just can't live with this sinful body anymore." She sat straight on the bed as she could not lay like that anymore on it.

'Leaving my body is the only solution to my problem. What is the best way to do it then?' even she did not want to, her mind started thinking furiously. There were many ways to commit suiside; taking sleeping pills, hanging, jumping into a well and cutting herself. Except taking sleeping pills, the other ways to commit suicide were appearing formidable to her. Even getting death by overdose of sleeping pills was little easier, neither she nor her family members have a habit of taking sleeping pills. She could not wait until it was morning and get sleeping pills from somewhere somehow. The urge in her to leave her body then and there itself was very much in her then.

'After taking sleeping pills' her mind was making suggestions 'hanging myself is little easier than the other modes and I can do it now and here itself.' she has got the idea how to do that and looked at the ceiling fan which was revoling at full speed and at her body itself. She was with her Punjabi dress then and the chunni was still on her body. It was not going to be that much difficult task to hang herself to the ceiling fan. 'Sometimes suicide attempts by hanging become failures, it should not happlen like that in my case' she thought.

She got off from the bed, went near to the switch-board there, switched off the ceiling fan and started staring at it which has been slowing gradually. Her mind suddenly started thinking in a different way. 'Why should I commit suiside? There is no wrong on my part. I can share this either to my dad, to my mom or to my friend Sameera. They say there is no wrong on my part and there is no necessity to me to worry. This is not that much of a big thing that I do leave my body.'

But these thoughts stopped by the time the ceiling fan stopped revoling and stilled and her mind started thinking in the way it did just minutes before. 'No I cannot live peacefully with that knowledge. This body is sinful and it has to be got rid off. That thing is not something that I can share with anyone. In fact....' She thought even more firmly in herself then '.....that thing is something that no one should ever know about.'

This time her resolve was storng, she put the chair nearby on the bed and stood herself on that. Then she knotted one end of the chunni to the ceiling fan carefully. She heard about the incidents that ceiling fans coming down with the persons hanging to it on some occasions and she prayed god that it would not happen like that in her case. Then she knotted the other end of the chunni around her neck carefully estimating that her feet would not touch the bed once she kicked the chair off. Once she became confident that both the knots of the chuuni at the fan and around her neck were secured and would not betray, she kicked off the chair from the bed onto the floor there. Once the chair was kicked off like that, as she expected her body was suspended in the air as the knots of her chunni at the fan and around her neck were perfect!

Once her body was floating like that in the air so, she once again started thinking against committing suicide. 'That is something for which I need not die myself like this. It can be shared with someone and they can relieve my heart. My parents and my friend will be hurt too much if I die like this. I must not die. I have to live and share that with my parents, friend Sameera and see what they would say. Please help me....help me....I don't want to die.' At that time she so desperately wanted to yell but the chunni which was tightening around her neck more and more did not allow any sound from her mouth.

When it has become so evident to her that she could not escape death, there was only one wish in her. 'Oh, god! Please don't let that thing to be known to anyone and it must remain as a secret forever. This is my last and only one wish.' She has thought the same thing and prayed the god only for it until life left her body.

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(..........to be continued)

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