♚ ℑrust the Just ♚ // Edmund X Reader

XVIII

(Y/n)'s POV

I was lying against the railing looking out at sea. There was nothing to do so I just sat with my thoughts...that wasn't a good thing.

Why is he spending so much time with Captain Joan!? 

I get that it's because he wants to help but come on! I know it wasn't a big deal...I'm just sad. Lucy has been helping around too so I haven't had anyone to talk to. I couldn't talk to Simon either, I could only check up on him occasionally. I felt alone and jealous. I felt silly realizing such feelings. 

I mean how could I not- Captain Joan was hot and cool and Edmund was hot and cool...it's like something could happen right? I didn't like that they were together. I'm being ridiculous I KNOW but I couldn't help it. I just wanted Edmund all to myself. I missed him. We hung out a little after we had managed to talk Joan down, but we started helping the crewmates get everything back in order and he drifted off. I was honestly getting tired of this ship; I think I just needed a change in scenery...and more time with Edmund then I would feel better.

"Edmund, hey!" Lucy had found him, and I was pathetically waiting for her to bring him over. I waved at him, and he seemed to have snapped out of his trance. His smile warmed my heart.

"I've missed you, what happened with Captain Joan?" I was trying to hide the fact I was jealous.

"Oh, you've missed me? how sweet of you to say (Y/n)," His snarky tone was heavenly to me. God I'm such a loser. He continued as I tried to ignore my honesty. 

"It wasn't that interesting; I just had some minor details I had to get straight with her. Everything is okay." Seriously, why was he being so vague for like we don't know what's really going on

"Okay...what is that supposed to mean?" I said crossing my arms. 

"It's nothing really, look I really don't want to get into it again, I'm exhausted. Is that okay?" He asked a bit peeved. It hurt me just because he's never talked to me like that. I was afraid he was getting tired of me. But I wanted to respect his wishes and give him space. I gotta reel it in a bit. 

"Yeah...well Lucy and I were wondering if you wanted to join us for dinner," I said trying to offset the tension. I was slightly annoyed, but I didn't want to talk about it. 

 "Of course, I'm starving I could eat this entire ship," He chuckled trying to bring the mood up. I gave him a half-hearted smile. I think Lucy could feel the tension, so she took over. I'm so glad she's here with us. 

"Let's stop standing around talking, let's go eat!" She dragged us to get food and that's what we did. It wasn't bad, I just wasn't that hungry. All the stress of everything and my jealousy made me lose my appetite. But I still tried to eat because I knew it might be a while until we had a solid meal after this. We were pretty quiet for most of the meal, all of us too tired to conversate. It just made me more anxious but what's new right?

"I can't believe how much we've dealt with on this mission already, I hope-" Lucy was interrupted by Ed, "Don't jinx us Lucy, but I know what you mean." Lucy looked at him intently, "I didn't know you were superstitious Ed," She said playfully.

"I'm not I just... never mind. It's been nice not having a certain prince be a complete pain in my arse ," Edmund said, "a certain prince constantly being obnoxious," He said smugly.

I couldn't help but laugh a bit, "Hey come on he's not all that bad," I said smiling, "He's actually pretty sweet once you get past his terrible jokes." 

Lucy nodded, eating the last of her food. "Yes, he's loads of fun to talk to, I'm actually looking forward to his coronation."

"Oh please, I doubt he's all that. And (Y/n), I thought he annoyed you the most with those hideous one-liners," he said scowling at the thought. I chuckled. "Yes, I will admit it's nice not hearing them but he's getting better,"