The Desire

" Kiss "

Shehnaaz

I put on my blue dress, trying to match my accessories with it , I panicked trying to find my bracelet and I stop myself from moving around when I find sidharth standing at the door watching me making me nervous he looks at me with so much adoration scaring me that I had to rethink my idea regarding us not being together but I brush it away.

" Am I looking that bad, that you can't form any words?? "

" You look so pretty, that I can't stop myself from standing away from you "

He says making me blush but I quickly look away moving towards my vanity and put some make up on, he walks towards me making me nervous at his each step towards me , I began to put my make up on while sidharth stood right behind me watching me.

" Calm down baby, everything is going to be all right "

He said making me stop, no matter how many differences we have between us sidharth always know how to make me feel better in this case he knows what am I going through.

" You think so?? I know this isn't new for me but I feel it's like my first ever venture I'm starting. Though I'm no more young 24 year old but this seems new to me. Do you always feel the same way when you start your new project or venture ?? "

I ask trying to know how does sidharth feel before he starts over a new project or venture , he smiles at me and I try mimicking it but it never reaches my eyes. He lift me up from my vanity seat making me sit on his lap as he takes over my previous spot, he pushed my hair back placing his arms around  my neck drawing circles over my naked skin.

" I feel nervous too and always stress regarding how hard the project is for me to create and go through but at the end I see my ultimate desire which is to keep you happy. Whenever my day goes bad at work I would always curse my fate but I knew it somewhere helps me to get my ego down and stopped me from getting myself knocked down from ultimate failure. Yes I look selfish and I was selfish for choosing my work over you but it was to keep you happy. I knew you we're never deprived of anything when you were kid and I wanted to provide you the same from my hard earned money in doing all of this I forgot that I was pushing you apart. "

" But I never pushed you, I was always there for you even when you pushed me because my whole world revolved around you and it still does sidharth. You are the center of my universe whether we are together or apart I can never forget you but this something between you and I again scares me "

I say resting my forehead over his shoulder, he pulls me further into the hug keeping his head under my neck .  I pull my head back and looked at him, he cups my face in his hands bringing me closer, I rest my forehead against his and I felt his lips touch mine. I didn't try moving back sitting still he kisses me pulling me extremely close to him I kissed him back moulding our mouths together he swiped his tongue under my lips making me open my mouth so that he could enter my mouth, I kiss him back with the same intense and I felt the same feeling of nostalgia hit me remembering our first kiss, I moan as I felt him kiss me harder making me weak on my knees I felt my toes curl as we kiss intensely while he growls as I tug his hair , we immediately pull apart when we heard zahara calling us out. I immediately got off him almost running towards my closet.

' what the hell???? Did I just kiss my ex husband?? Did we fucking kiss!!! What was I thinking!!! I literally said him few minutes ago us together again scares me and the next moment we are kissing this is unbelievable I'm unbelievable ' I thought picking my heels up and wore it rushing out and did my make up quickly.