ED-Racha | Stray Kids FICTION (Plz read description)

The Convenient Store.

Jeongin walked outside to see Seungmin standing there waiting for him. "Hey." Jeongin stood next to him. "Hi." Seungmin started walking. "Quick question. Why'd you ask me out of all of the members?" Jeongin fallowed Seungmin as they started down the street. "I- I wanted to ask you about something." Seungmin was looking at the ground, knowing what Jeongin would say if he found out how things were going. "And that is?" Jeongin sped up for a moment to catch up to Seungmin. "Well- You know more about this than anyone I know does, at least I think, so...Is it normal to feel lightheaded when restricting Food? I know it's a dumb question, but I need to know how to stop it while still not eating a whole lot." It all fell silent for what seemed like years before anyone spoke. "No... Don't even try to find any dumb solution to losing that fatigue because it won't go away. Not without making up for the lost calories. You don't need to start losing weight in an unhealthy way, and I don't want you to start now. I don't care what any of the other members, or even what I do, you don't need to do that." Jeongin had never been so straight forward with anyone before. "But...What if, it's too late. And what if, I already took it further than I should have. And what if-", "No what ifs! If you've done it, you've done it! But, I feel like you can turn back now, and you should." The boys had stopped walking by now and it was, once again, silent. "But what if I don't want to! What if I don't want to stop this? What if I like it? Then what?" Jeongin softened his gaze. "Then maybe you were right. I didn't want to drag you down with me but..."  Jeongin trailed off wondering what would happen now. "You didn't 'drag me down with you' I promise. I've thought this way for a while, I just never acted on it until I realized I wouldn't be alone. I didn't want anybody to be worried because I was the only one losing weight. And especially if it was apparent that it was more than just a diet." Seungmin motioned to continue walking as the argument had been resolved. "Then make it seem like a diet. You're not hopeless but more like me in this illness. I keep being told that I could recover if I truly tried but I just don't want to." Jeongin continued walking as they were talking. "I see...So you'll help me?" Seungmin stopped before walking across the street waiting on an answer. Jeongin sighed and thought for a second. "You've never acted on these thoughts; you don't know your limit to restriction...so I guess I'll help you." Seungmin heard this answer and smiled. The boys made it to the store and grabbed what they wanted, before heading back home.