Every World is Collapsing [Quick Wear] ━ Vol.2

12.2 - The heaviest shackles in the heart

Because it had been soaked in water, many pages of the diary were blurred, but even so, the words on many pages could still be read clearly.

The familiar handwriting, the nostalgic words, and the tenderness between the lines are nothing like that unsmiling man.

Faced with those tendernesses, those words, and the man who regarded him as his life, all the problems that had been carefully buried in his heart and forgotten by his own choice came to Chu Jingran's eyes one after another.

When we first met, the man confessed his love deeply; when dining, the man ordered the food accurately and unfailingly; when at home, the man made many slips of the tongue to cover up; when he was awakened from a dream, the man sat by and looked at his face in a daze...

Chu Jingran wanted to retort, but when he raised his head, he found that the woman opposite had left at some point.

He didn't believe it. As an actor, Chu Jingran, who was very good at performing routines, never believed in other people's attempts to sow discord, never!

He firmly believed that it was the other party's trap, and he always believed it.

Until, intentionally or unintentionally, he revealed that he knew about the existence of the diary, and the man admitted in a brief silence that it was indeed written by him.

Until, when faced with the straightforward question when they first met again, the man concealed himself and avoided answering.

Until, he said, I don't want to lie to you.

Stand-in, stand-in... He, Chu Jingran, had been smart for half his life, thinking that after the storm, he would eventually see a rainbow, but in the end, he discovered that he had been someone's stand-in for nearly four years.

What's even more ridiculous is that when he discovered everything, he hesitated countless times, which shook the pride in his bones.

Anyway, it's over...

Anyway, he loves me now...

Anyway, he doesn't know that I know, so just pretend that nothing happened...

The moment he realized his countless thoughts, Chu Jingran was also stunned.

Chu Jingran once read a book, and there was a sentence in it, which roughly meant that if a person was successfully tamed, the person who tamed him would become the most special being in his eyes, even more important than life.

When he first read that book, Chu Jingran was so proud that he dismissed it. In this world, he was the only one who tamed others, so there was no reason for others to tame him.

However, this most impossible thing turned into a fact one day and became a shackle that imprisoned his entire life.

But he, who was once proud and arrogant, still wanted to drown in it and did not want to wake up after clearly seeing this trick of boiling a frog in warm water.

It's just that some people may really choose to pretend that nothing happened, but Chu Jingran who has obviously been cruel to himself since childhood and who is also cruel to others is not some people.

So, after overhearing the man's plan, he set up a simple game, a game called killing himself with his own hands.

He wanted to take revenge on that man, and he wanted to take revenge on the ridiculous self that had been domesticated and indulged in lies and was unwilling to wake up.

He succeeded.

However, even so, he still sadly couldn't forget the other party.

That look, that deep affection, those cold yet extremely beautiful blue eyes... He couldn't forget that person.