Fate, Strings and a Scissors | ✓

Draft 9: And Thus, She Pushes Him Away

Dear Peter,
I really miss Mia. So so much. But I avoid thinking of her since I feel mixed emotions. I feel guilty. Sometimes, I find myself blaming her for 'the incident' because, she was the target and I was just dragged in as a 'bonus' But then, she wasn't the one that told them to do that to us. The last thing she told me was that her action would be both a gift and a curse. I've seen the curse, and I don't understand why. But I still don't see the gift...

Excerpt: 15 yrs old Jinnx's at the hospital.

~Jinnx~

I stood in front of the school. It was already evening and most classes were already over so the school was mostly empty.

I didn't know what to do. It felt so hard to breathe. I had to go home before mother got angry but I was scared. What if I met Damien on the road home? What if I met any of the others too? How many of them were close by but just hadn't crossed paths with me yet?

What if I meet one of them that I don't remember? What do I do? How would I even know that I'm in danger?

I felt a hand pat my head. I flinched violently before looking up and thankfully, it was Jayden. I wanted to say something. To ask how he found me. But I felt like if I spoke up at that moment, I'd finally break down. And I didn't want to.

Besides, it was probably Zane that exposed my location since I told him I wanted to apologize to Jay.

He looked at my messy hair and stared into my probably puffy eyes that were missing it's eye patch. I was finally seeing him without it. No tear had fallen and yet, they were still swollen from the effort. ''I know that you've been avoiding me since yesterday but... you'll at least let me walk you home, won't you?'' He asked.

There was nothing to think about. I didn't want to go home alone and I'd been provided a willing companion. I nodded quietly which made him smile.

He started walking and I followed.

I let out an inaudible sigh as my mind went back to Damien again. What if he already knew where I lived? Would he tell the others?

No. He wouldn't tell the others. There was a bounty and a bet. He would want to win both. If only there was a way to make sure he wouldn't do anything to me and still not tell any of the others, then-

My thoughts were cut of my me tripping on a stone. On reflex, Jayden immediately caught me, saving me from my usual lack of luck. I saw some of his luck circle me gently before he let me go.

It's been so long since someone's luck did that to me.

"Thanks." I said in a small voice. He only nodded without a word and we continued walking.

My conscience was being pulled from all angles. Wasn't he angry? The Jayden I knew would be really pissed at me for just disappearing without telling him. He'd yell at me and make his displeasure very obvious. But now... , he looks almost like he doesn't care.

Kinda like Aksel initially, right? Intrude whispered. Unmoved. Unfeeling... uncaring.

No. That can't be. Jay doesn't care about me? Jay?? I felt a thud in my chest.

We walked in silence till my house was in sight. I couldn't take the guilt anymore so I spoke up. "I'm sorry for not answering your calls and messages. And for avoiding you in school too." There. I finally said it.

He sighed. "It's fine. I know Aksel pushed your buttons. It's not your fault." He responded.

I felt even more guilty because he wasn't putting any blame on me. I shook my head. "No, it is." I counted. "It was my decision to obey when he said I shouldn't be near you." I felt my emotions swirling around. "I'm sorry for trying to give up so easily just because someone told me to."