Alright enough with that serious shit I apologize *laughing emoji*. Don't get me wrong I still am a serious crossed arm dude but now isn't the time for that. So lemme first tell you how I decided to start this new chapter. 8 months later from the first chapter of this joke of an autobiography, here I am at my cousins' house. These guys are the reason I did this (appreciate it fam) I think it's the guilt that I left my "fans" wanting more that I decided to sit in this faulty chair and type on this expensive computer. Khalil with a broken broomstick was my main motivation because the ass that he is would beat me with it if I didn't do another chapter of this story. I think it's the fact that he used that to kill a flying roach so I wasn't trying to be his next victim. So I began to think its time to give the world another taste of what goes on in my mind.
Mannn, here I am running low on things to type and things I don't mind releasing to the pulic. Nowadays you have to be careful with who you talk to and give your info to. Everybody likes to report it like a news story. Well this chapter gonna have niggas running around talking bout "EXTRA EXTRA READ ALL ABOUT IT AMARI DROPPED SOME NEW FIRE" boi you look like a extra extra read all about it. I don't need anybody making me known , that's my job. Here's the first thing to remember when you read this chapter and as you walk through life: don't let anybody tell you who you are. Ain't nobody like you lil bro/sis. You give yourself a name. You make your own name in history or whatever the subject is. You choose who you want to be and what you want to be known for. I'm not sure how I learned that but I do remember going to a church service that reminded me of a night club. It was a Wednesday service and me fly as fuck you know the deal boi gotta look nice for God. I remember it clear as the glasses I don't have or wear, nobody can make a name for you. That doesn't mean go be a hoe and ignore what everybody says because if you the type to have knees that lare blacker than the color black, you a hoe. BUT ANYWAYS what the preacher was talking about, was that if you are the person who lives out your life why should anybody else name you? Just like that whole Caitlyn Jenner junk, idk all I have to say to you is do you b, don't try to do me tho I like REAL women. If my girl more manly than me you good just go be man with somebody else I like my women 100% female no history of having a SAUSAGE. But yea If that's who he chooses to be I guess that's cool, who am I to tell you who you are (NOT DEFENDING HIS ACTIONS). I am Amari Ellis and I am still working on finding out who I wanna be. I'll scream that to anybody. "Nobody can make me feel inferior without my consent" idk who said that but who ever It was, I applaud you. Alright enough of about that tho, I just want whoever reads this to think about that and the rest of the things I point out.
So, I don't mind telling you guys this, I figured if you cared enough to read this story, ill tell you that like 2 years almost ive been paying attention to two people, trying to mold my self into someone better than both of them combined. I still wanted to be me , I just thought they were the best people ever, I still do now, I just see them as family now not people to compete with. SHOUTOUT TO TWO COUSINS I LOVE JULIO AND DETRONE. Those guys have so much style and they always doing something fun. What realized tho is that none of that really matters. Yea having fire ass clothes and a nice sneaker collection is awesome but those things base off of who you are, what you like and such. So instead of copying what they wear and what they do, ill take care of rocking and doing I want. The more time I spend wathing them, the more time I lose working on myself. They rock true religion jeans and I still wear rocawear. Those guys have one thing I don't; money. Even when I do have money I don't know what to do with it and when I don't spend it I have a small pain deep in my soul. When I don't have money I know what I want and when I have the money I don't know what to do with it. *Sigh* oh well. Im just now focused on not being the casual hood nigga so a cop don't search my shit because the jeans im wearing fit loose and I have a gold watch on. Im more focused on wearing what I want, after all the close you wear do show who you are. I want the people who see me to see im a YOUNG RICH NIGGA lmao nah im playing, I just want to be able to wear outfits and look in the mirror and be like *drake voice* that's all me. So if you haven't realized, this part is about being yourself. Well clothing mostly, basically just don't go out looking like someone else. Rock what you like. Fuck all that ^ I went off topic and just kept going something I do a lot IMPROVISING. But im trying to get some people more interested in reading my shit so what being yourself means is that not only the clothes you wear but what ever describes you, let it describe you. Try to make whatever it is based on you not other people. Simple as that. If everybody was the same as me we would all be great people *cough cough* nah im pretty flawed myself but that's me. That's why I was on mars for so long just trying to figure out who Amari Ellis was without any interference from other people who I lived on earth with. Had enough time to decide what I am ( a fucking GAWD ) and I guess that what makes me different from everybody. I don't care about being different as long as im not the same as you savage ass children. Yall scare me, taking showers with the pool shower before you get in like wtf who does that- nevermind tho.
Now im sure yall tired of my lame ass jokes and my imperfections and such - you better not be im doing you a favor warming you with this fire- but now im about to answer your question. WHOS AMARI ELLIS? Not the question you should be asking when you see my message on kik, but also something that's not simple. On kik you guys know me as BALANCED SOUL, Instagram @extra.rare follow me lol, and In real life you guys know me as rich homie Ellis swag swag, younger thug, fire gawd, asap brokeboy, lol nah I honestly don't know what you guys ee me as in real life. I look in the mirror and go look in a different mirror because im so hot I already melted that shit, you guys think im playing im dead ass serious. But on some real shit , im a big joker but sometimes I can be serious and say real shit. It may hurt and to the people I hurt, woops. Ill give you advice if you want it, but ill give it to you if i feel you deserve it. I aint for everybody so I don't go around trying to make friends with people, im not a peoples person because I will fry yo ass up. I make jokes about the people I chill with and if I have something to say I don't mind saying it to them not to somebody else hoping they wont say anything. I don't believe in exposure if I tell you things that means I don't care if you tell anybody else, shitttt ill tell them myself since it needs to be shared. I don't let a lot of things really bother my soul. If you have something to say about me, thanks I appreciate the time and effort you put into evaluating who I am and what my problem is, I LOVE BAD BITCHES THAT'S MY FUCKING PROBLEM. I have manyyyy problems but I just see them as things I can improve from. I don't see my past experiences as mistakes but I look back at them and realize what good things have come from that mistake. I taught myself that if you only look at the good things bad things will pretty much disappear , also everything has a reason. Think about those things. But one of my problems are that I cant make up my mind on a lot of different things. Like do I want to smack a bitch or do a combo move and knock somebody the fuck out. BTW I DON'T ENCOURAGE VIOLENCE ESPECIALLY NOT TOWARD WOMEN. I don't hit women like why would you hurt them they are part of the reason that anybody is on this earth (after God and men lol) but WOMEN that doesn't mean to go beat on guys because I wish I could stop it but there are some niggas would kick your ass, so just chill with that fighting shit. But I just have trouble making decisions idk ive been trying to get my 2k14 rating up so give me some time. I still got a lot to say but honestly its summer so enough work for now. SEE YOU IN THE NEXT 8 MONTHS. Lol nah just kidding ill try to do another chapter soon enough but yea, see you guys l8ter thanks for the support.
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