Remember Me, Darling

Remember Me, Darling (10)

Chapter 10

*Van POV*

I feel bad. I really do. I want to tell her I love her, but I can't! She's doing good with Frank... It's not my damn fault! I can't worry about it, she'll come around. She's got to.

Against my better judgement yet again, I checked TMZ. I couldn't believe what I saw. There was ANOTHER article about me. Not about Deborah and me, but about VERONICA and me. The headline was "Van Johnson; Havok in Hollywood". It's about the drama between V and I. Boy, word travels fast! But how did it get to the paps?

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The things they put in this article are crazy! It said that Veronica, apparently, told "sources" close to her that I told her she is a no good nothing who won't amount to anything. Then, "sources" close me said that V and I were never friends in the first place. Me and her never had any connection whatsoever. I mean, who the hell comes up with this stuff?

Oh, and there's a knock at the door. Speak of the devil, it's Veronica.

"Veronica, what are you-"

"The articles, obviously. Oh, don't tell me you haven't seen them."

"Well, yes, I've seen them. But none of it's true!"

"You're sure?"

"What? Of course I'm sure! Why would I ever tell the paparazzis that? You know damn well I don't trust any of them."

"Well, I wouldn't know. I didn't know about Deborah, either."

"Veronica, I have an explanation for that."

"I'm sure you do, Van."

"What? You don't believe me?"

"Why should I?"

"Goddamn it, Veronica! I told you, I have an explanation. Are you going to hold me against it the rest of my life?"

"Van, I don't care that you went out with her. What I'm worried about it that you lied to me. You how hard it is to gain my trust. Look at how long it took you!"

"Well, it didn't take Frank too damn long..."

"Van, that's different!"

"Really, how's that different?! You only met him a couple weeks ago! It took me close to a year to gain everything I have from you! And just because it's Frank Sinatra, all of sudden, he's your top priority now!"

"WHAT?! HE'S MY TOP PRIORITY?! Van, you're insane. You know damn well that he's the one I've been hopelessly in love with the past 10 years! And you know that you're my best friend. Not him. Me and him only started talking a few weeks ago! What are you, jealous or something?!"

"You know what? Maybe I am jealous! I'm jealous that he's the one that gets to hold you at night when you're cold. He's the one that gets all your goodnight kisses. HE'S the one that has YOU. Why can't you see that he doesn't deserve you?!"

Oh my god. What did I just say.?.. I just told her my feelings. This can't be happening. I'm so stupid!

"Van, I'm sorry... I didn't know... Why didn't you tell me before?"

"Because I knew you liked Frank.."

"You should've told me. You never know what could've been."

By the time I looked up, she was gone. Did she just admit she had feelings for me too? I'm so confused..

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*Veronica POV*

I'm so confused... Van just told me had feelings for me.. Right? I can't believe it. I didn't know he had these feelings for me. And I had the same feelings for him ... Well , I don't know if I still have them or not... I can't think about think this too much.

It was about 8:30 when I left Van's. I drove. I drove aimlessly for hours. I seriously drove all around Los Angeles. I drove through Rodeo Drive. I even went by Santa Monica and down the Pacific Coast highway. I think I ended up at Long Beach. it was late and no one was there so I sat there. On the sand, and watched the waves. I brought my phone with me so I was playing some music. I wasn't really listening until this particular song came on. Last First Kiss by some band.. I can't really think of the name now.. But I let the lyrics sink in.

"Baby I, I wanna know,

What you think when you're alone

Is it me, yeah?

Are you thinking of me, yeah?

Oh, we've been friends now for a while

Wanna know that when you smile

Is it me, yeah?

Are you thinking of me, yeah?

Oh, oh

.....

I wanna be last, yeah

Baby, let me be your, let me be your last first kiss

I wanna be first, yeah, wanna be the first to take it all the way like this

And if you, only knew,

I wanna be last, yeah

Baby, let me be your last

You're last first kiss"

Oh my god. I think I have feelings for Van. I have feelings for my best friend. No, I can't! But... Can I? No!

When I looked at me phone, it was already almost 11. Holy crap, I've been out this long? I also saw that I had a text from Frank.

FS: Hey! Where are you?

I'm not answering. He's gonna ask me to go out with him and I don't want to. I want to go home, take a warm shower, eat a ham sandwich, and go to sleep. I'm done today. I'm pretty much done with life right now.

*****AUTHORS NOTE

drama drama drama! Haha, how are you guys liking the story?! Btw, that song, Last First Kiss is from One Direction. I didnt put then in there because obviously they arent from the 1950's. I know I know, some of you are going to hate me for it, but yes. I am a one direction fan. I wouldn't say I'm a "directioner" but I really do like their music.

Ok, that's all! Love yous -MG xx