Dear Alexander,
Alexander, this name, it took me decades to recall. If spoken in true way, this name was always within me, in some isolated place in my heart. Untouched, undisturbed and unhurt.
This person was a part of my life journey, witness of my situations, witness of all rights and wrong in my life. When I cried, I fad up, I exhaust I look at you, you were a healer and a strength in true sense. You were always there when I was at the edge of striking low in my life, at the point to finish up all, you had hold me tight.
Alexander, you remember what's the date today? I think it must be cloudy in your mind but it was as clear as it was yesterday to me, when we had a fight. A really ridiculous fight. You were bursting in anger, you were shouting I was more shocked than hurted to see you like this.
That day I understood there was nothing left to be spoken out. I want to say a lot, I want to explain, I want to clear your doubts but your behaviour and your withdrawal of feelings from me was the indication that it's over. The relation that is nurture by love and trust was collapsing in front of my eyes and the most vulnerable part was we are the ones destroying it.
That was the first day I left bare handed. Either I was always overwhelmed and happy when I returned after our meeting. Y make me feel complete not once but every damm day. Trust me you did.
After these years, me Recalling you was a purpose. But before that you must know that through what you make me go, my only fault was I had love you immensely, right from the very first day we met.
Alaxender, I don't think I could right you much, because my heart was full. I will soon contact you.
With Love
Jane
