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2 - My thoughts

When I finished eating my cake, I went to pay and left the dessert shop. On the way back I put my headphones in my ear to listen to music and looked around a bit only to see Kenta who was apparently still watching me. I sighed because it's really not nice to be followed all the time. Father knows that I can't escape him, I just let it be and went back to the university. When I arrived, I went straight to the room where I will have my next lecture.

I found the room straight away and sat down on some spot in the middle and waited until the lecture starts, the room always filled up until at the end the professor came in and closed the door and the lecture started. It wasn't that interesting today, but I had to get through it. After five hours the lecture was finally over, and I could go home I thought today has really exhausted me, I noticed and got up to pack my things and leave the room. I walked to the bus stop because I don't own a car because I don't have the money for one right now. After the bus came, I and a few other people got on, and the bus driver drove off. I looked for a place and found one. I sat there and continued listening to my music. Just had to wait forty minutes until I got home, like every day, I thought.

The bus stopped, and I got up from my seat and went out to make my way to my apartment that I had lived in for two years. It was my little home that I built for myself when I had nothing. I unlocked my door and left already in I turned around and closed my door and put my bag on the floor and took off my shoes and put them nicely only to then walk straight into my bedroom and opened the door and closed it too and go towards my bed I pulled the blanket to the side and lay down and then covered myself. I looked up at my wall and my thoughts were all running through my head. Not only that, but I just didn't know what to do with my thoughts and life as it would probably be if I had someone by my side would have supported me and helped me. That's the only thing I need right now.

I don't know how long I'll be able to hold on and fight with myself. I just don't want to anymore. My thoughts are eating me up more and more day by day and I can't stop it. I don't want to anymore either have this shitty power that is a burden on me, I don't want to touch people anymore and know what they will experience because that doesn't really concern me I was raised in such a way that my strength is just a weapon with which he can hurt people.

I noticed how I was getting more and more tired and than my eyes closed.

___________six hours later

I slowly opened my eyes and looked at the window, only to notice that it was already dark outside. I got up and made my way to the kitchen and opened my fridge and looked in and saw that it was empty. Have to go buy something or not, I thought about ordering something to eat only to miss the first decision. Took my jacket and put it on straight away and grabbed my keys and my wallet which had money in it with which I wanted to buy something to eat. I walked, I went to the supermarket right around the corner, which was really convenient for me because I didn't have to walk so much. Took a shopping cart and entered the store. I looked around very carefully and kept picking up what I needed. When I found everything, I drove I had already bought everything with the shopping cart to the checkout, I ran back as I took steps behind me. I just walked further away in a relaxed manner than the man but increased his pace.

I also automatically walked faster. Looked back once and saw the man grinning at me, I looked away disgusted and tried to think and looked around a bit until I saw a street where I heard loud noises. I wanted to go straight into it and increased my speed to be faster and when I saw how many people were outside I was relieved that I wasn't alone otherwise I would be lost and hid among the people to get rid of him because I was no match for this man and was inferior to him as omega. Afterward I simply ran into an open shop and looked outside the shop and saw what he was like he looked around but when he noticed that I was no longer to be found he walked away in anger. I breathed out a calming breath because it was taking a toll on me, but I was used to being followed and harassed as an omega. It wasn't easy to go out when it was in the evening.

After I had calmed down, I walked out and made my usual way home like I did at the beginning. This time I arrived without anything happening to me. I entered my apartment and put everything in the kitchen and cooked something delicious for myself after a long time, After I had eaten I put away the rest of what I had bought and rinsed everything and then dried it and put everything away. Then I walk to the sofa and sat down and took my laptop and worked on a few things for the university because I had assignments I had to succumb, after a while I looked at the clock and saw that I had been on my laptop for three hours to do the tasks. I put my laptop away because that was enough for the day. It was really stressful, everything today was the same as the other days, just that it was harder for me today I just walk into my bedroom just to ignore the bad thoughts that I always got in the evenings. I immediately sat down on my bed and continued reading the book I was currently reading. I noticed how tired I was getting, and my eyes were getting tired I didn't want to allow it to close all the time, so I rubbed my eyes which didn't really help, and so I fell asleep after a while.

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