𝐒𝐚𝐞, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐦𝐞 ~ | Itoshi Sae

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This was BAD, bad bad.

He couldn't deny you, he needed to deny you. It was so hard tho when you laid there so prettily. Eyes low and barely open, lips slightly parted waiting for a response. So vulnerable..

Fuck he was so weak, when did he get this soft? Why was he being so soft when it came to you.

Always finding some way to tug on the strings of his heart, so confused on why it'd been so hard to just leave, to tell you no and go on. He shouldn't care? 'He didn't care' , he tried to say it to himself. It just ended up sounding like in the end, he'd been trying to convince himself the little feeling you gave him didn't exist, and maybe he was just being idiotic.

He couldn't help but sigh and nod, debating on where to lay until you moved, creating a space Behind you so he could lay. That little space, you'd be rubbed against eachother if he laid there- every "bad idea" alarm going off in his head..but every red alarm seeming so green when it came to you.

All green flags slowly turning into red when he laid behind you, your hand moving to grab his and place it over your waist, your body so warm and close against his.
He could smell your sweet perfume . So faint and soft, the smell making his head spin in such a good way. His body warming and heart racing- so nervous to be so close to you.

Why was he so nervous?

Why didn't he leave before?

All he had to do was make it until early in the morning, then he could get up and leave and act like nothing happened.

He didn't sleep, mind to occupied on how close you were and how pretty you looked even knocked out asleep, and he only realized how long he'd stayed up when the sun peaked through the curtains of your house.

He quickly and quietly hopped up, body warm and face so embarrassingly red, sneaking out and calling his ride quickly getting to his hotel.

Almost forgetting about his meeting , he rushed to get ready for.

Throughout the meeting that's all his mind went to, was you and how you so innocently rubbed so closely against him when you slept.
A pink blush spreading across his face.

"Hello? Dude sae are you alright, you've been zoned out the whole meeting and your face is red as fuck"

He only snapped out of his head when Aiku had took notice of saes state and said something.

His brain and heart had been in a frenzy, it was so bad he almost forgot to put on his stoic face and tell aiku to move the fuck around- or simply ignore him but he couldn't help but answer.

"I'm ok."

Shocked at the fact Sae actually answered his eyebrow rose, he definitely wasn't ok but he wasn't gonna pry, he had bigger fish to fry and so did Sae.

"Sooo what'd ya think about the upcoming BLUELOCK U-20 match? You think the shrimps might beat us?"

"Aiku don't be stupid. If they manage to beat us then you guys are obviously sucky."

"Well sometimes gotta give the kids their props"

"Whatever."

He said before walking away from the conversation, a few minutes later realizing that the match was infact coming up and he still had you on his hands.

He didn't know what to do or how to handle it. He did still have a few weeks but that meant going back to Japan and having to ghost you. He could tell you just who he was but something wasn't right.

You'd been lying to her, why would she believe you? Why would she hear you out?

Fuck why was he so horrible when it came to feelings- why was he so fucking stupid..?

No matter how hard he thought the only logical thought would be to just stop talking to you, he couldn't afford your feelings or his- he couldn't have whatever this was in the way of his soccer career.

He was never one for romantic feelings and relationships so why start now? Especially if you weren't even all that special..?

There he sat in his hotel room, dark and alone analyzing the plays for the upcoming match he'd eventually have to practice for. Worst part was he wouldn't even fucking focus because all he could think about was you?

He also remembered how he'd left without saying anything earlier- he should've checked up on you before he left. Was it too late to see you? Should he call-? No. You probably don't wanna hear from him.. he'll just shoot a text-? Yeah. Yea that sounds a lot better.

Y/n < 3

Him : hello, sorry for just leaving on such short notice.. are you alright-?

...

Yn < 3 : yeah I'm ok. Ty for apologizing- I thought I did something.. I'm sorry for forcing you to stay!! Totally wrong of me

Him : it's ok, I didn't mind and I enjoyed hanging out with you. I just wanted to checkup.

Y/n < 3 : oh okay! And really!? I'm happy u had fun redhead <33 would you like to hangout again then?

He was shocked you texted back, even more shocked you asked to hangout again. He wanted to- he wanted to spend more time with you but he had to focus. He had to detach and start getting ready for the match. He only had a few weeks and he should really be focusing on the bigger problem.

.... Then again he couldn't just leave you high and dry like that. Fuck.

Ok, maybe a few more times and he'd stop? Like seriously.

Him : yeah, when?

Y/n < 3 : this Thursday? Also I wanna hangout that weekend so pack clothes! See you then red head ♥️ .

His face was burning red and the feeling of excitement took over, the red heard and the nickname you had for him made him wanna flip and giggle like some girl.

Jeez he couldn't stand the way you made him feel.