Off Limits| Heejake

26

—1 week later—

Heeseung~

I was currently holding onto Jake who sat in my lap facing the tv, like he's been since his mother died, he was quiet, he had gone selectively mute since he got the news, and I don't blame him.

I wouldn't speak for a while if I find out my mother died so tragically along with my toddler cousin. He was getting better when it came to sleeping, but he still wouldn't really eat and still tried to be somewhat distant from everyone.

He sometimes smiled luckily, he still wanted to be clingy at times, and he sometimes still wanted kisses.  But of course, out of respect for him mourning, I didn't start any of it, no lip to lip kisses, only cheek kisses and nothing sexual at all, that would be disrespectful to him and his mom especially if he didn't initiate it first.

Her and Lily's funeral was yesterday which was Wednesday, it really did hurt to see her looking so lifeless, it didn't seem real to me either as I had grew up with her as well and was treated like a son.

So of course I was also pretty hurt too, but not as much as Jay and Jake.

Jake is taking a break from all work and staying home which is good for his mental health.

I snapped out of my thoughts when Jake moved around on my lap going to sit sideways and push his head into my chest, I kissed him on the forehead and wrapped my arms around him as he let out a small smile and I did the same as I ran my hand gently through his hair. "Feeling a little better?" I asked as earlier he was going through it.

He nods a little with a sigh as I continue to run my hand through his soft hair, I knew he enjoyed it a lot. "I miss them." He tells me in a small voice that I barely heard him, it was so quiet, but I was happy he said a little something.

"I know prince, I miss them too." I told him honestly as he nods in understanding. "Thank you for putting up with me." He says again, and I'm really shocked this time because first off, he hadn't spoken nor one peep since we got the news, and second I wasn't expecting him to say a second and longer sentence.

"You don't have to thank me bellissimo, you're my boyfriend and I love you. I know you're grieving so it doesn't matter to me that you're acting differently, that's normal when you loose someone as close as a mother and cousin." I told him pulling him closer to me and he nods slightly.

I just hope he and Jay would be able to function again soon, I know it'll take time. "I love you a lot." He suddenly admits making my heart rate speed up. He was too adorable.

"I love you a lot too Jake." I told him kissing him on top of his head again with a small chuckle. He pressed himself as best as he could against my body, seeming like he almost wanted to be surrounded by all of me.

So I did my best to do so as I wrapped my arms around his body too bringing him a little closer as close as he could be and then setting my head to lay gently on top of his own.

And he seemed satisfied as he relaxed in my arms letting out a deep sigh. Jay would be staying with his father to help support him as the oldest, and he told Jake to just stay home as well as their father since Jake was the most sensitive out of them all and he'd probably have a break down every second of the day if he stayed in the house for too long.

Jay and Mr.Park were more so on the tougher side, they didn't break down as easy, and because Mr.Park has been encouraging everyone to stay happy because Mrs.Sim would be sad to see us crying and being depressed about something like this.