It's 1:30 am, and i'm still awake. hindi pa ako natutulog since may tinatapos pa ako and ayoko rin naman na matulog. if matutulog ako for sure i'll get nightmares, again.
"how pathetic" no, no. fuck you all, mga sinungaling kayo. i-i trusted all you tapos g-ganituhin nyo lang ako. Fuck all of you, mamatay na kayo.
"i shouldn't have trusted all of you, I thought kaibigan ko kayo, but i was wrong.. mga potanginang demonyo kayo!" I was at rage, they betrayed me , mga walangya sila.
" What do you mean? sayang naman kasi yang ganda mo, look at you.. you won't regret this, i promise. My friend is a good one, you'll enjoy it" ngumisi ito sabay tawa na akala mo'y nababaliw. HELL NO hindi lang yon akala BALIW TALAGA SYA, BALIW!
kung hindi dumating yung sa university for sure baka na rape na ako or worse, patay na.. fuck! well mas pipiliin ko nalang mamatay ng makasama ko na ulit sila mom at dad. They're fucking bastard, they make fun of me, they harassed me. FUCK, FUCK, FUCK THEM ALL! I WILL NEVER FUCKING FORGIVE THEM.
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"FUCK!" shit. those nightmares again
it's getting worse, i'm getting worse.
nag try akong magpa consult sa psychiatrist, i thought nagiging okay na.. unti-unti na akong nagiging okay but i was wrong, bumabalik at bumabalik parin. There's still a part of me na bigla-bigla nalang matutulala, maiiyak, anxious.. hopeless. I think that's what depression really is.
if i won't be okay, then just let me die already.
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