HEAVEN KNOWS (GL)

Break-up

FREEN

"There are times when I'm lying in my bed

How I bellow and cry from this stupid gate"

Rinig ko na naman dito sa kwarto ko ang malakas niyang pagpapatugtog sa kwarto niya.

"And my eyes are like windshields on a rainy dayAlmost rubbed-down, swelling"

Ang sakit pakinggan ng kantang yan na kahit ako ay naiiyak sa tuwing naririnig ko. It cuts all my senses if I heard that song.

"As I keep on dipping my face in these cold hands of mine

Heaven knows how embittered I am "

I know how hurt she was when that happened pero di lang siya ang nasasaktan rito. Halos isang taon ko nang tinitiis ang cold treatment niya.

'Cause this angel has flown away from me

Leaving me with drunken misery"

Kaliangan may gawin ako to save this relationship. Di ko hahayaang wala lang ito for god sake. Heaven knows too that I miss her so so so much just how I miss our little angel who flown away already from our hands.

"I should have clipped her wingsAnd made her mine for all eternity

Now, this angel has flown away from me

Thought I had the strength to set her freeDid what I did because I love her so

Will she ever find her way back home to me? Oh-oh"

I'm still hoping na kaya pa namin tong ayusin.

Tuluyan ng bumagsak ang mga luha ko habang patuloy na nakikinig sa tugtog sa kabilang kwarto.

"I'm so tired, I feel like catching 40 winks

Being up all night in this elbow room

That puts me in a trance

Where hopes and dreams come true

Now, my lips are burningAnd my eyes are hurting

From these fumes I make, still, I light another cigarette

Just to pass my time, oh

Heaven knows how embittered I am

'Cause this angel has flown away from me

Leaving me with drunken misery

I should have clipped her wings

And made her mine for all eternity

Now, this angel has flown away from me

Thought I had the strength to set her free

Did what I did because I love her so

Will she ever find her way back home to me?

 Oh-ohOoh-ooh-ooh-ooh"

I wiped my tears as the song fades. Dali- dali akong pumunta sa kwarto niya, baka nakatulog na siya sa kakaiyak. Alam kong she silently cried everyday and it fuckin kills me seeing her cried. Ansakit pagnakikita mong umiiyak at nasasaktan ang taong mahal mo.

I was about to knock on the door when I realized na baka tulog na siya. So I decided to hold the knob instead and hoping that it wasn't lock.

Napabuntonghininga ako ng malaman kong hindi naman pala naka lock yung pinto kaya dahan dahan kong binuksan ang pinto just to be sure na di ako makakagawa ng ingay.I was stunned upon seeing her there. In the corner of her bed there she was hugging the things of our daughter and crying so hard.

I was caught off guard upon seeing her like that.It breaks my heart into pieces again upon seeing her situation. I didn't expect how devastated she was not until now.

"B-Beck? Baby? "

I manage to call her which made her head lift and turned to my direction.I ran towards her and hug her tight.

Ohhh... how I miss her so much. Di siya pumalag nang higpitan ko ang yakap ko sa kanya bagkos ay naramdaman kung iniyakap niya sa may leeg ko ang bisig niya.Pareho na kaming umiiyak ngayon. Parehong walang gustong magsalita. Parehong pinakiramdaman ang bawat isa. Until she broke the long silence.

"Freen....." umiiyak niyang tawag sa akin."I-I'm so sorry...."

She manage to say it while sobbing. Hinigpitan niya rin ang yakap niya sa akin. She's giving tiny kisses on my checks while saying those words.

"Sssshhhhh.... Tama na please. Wala kang kasalanan sa akin."pag-aalo ko sa kanya dahil hindi na talaga siya tumigil kaka-sorry. I cupped her face while trying to make her calm."Walang may gusto sa nangyari babe. Accidente yun. Oo nagalit rin ako pero hindi sayo kundi sa sarili ko. Wala man lang akong nagawa to save her, our freah."umiiyak kong sambit.

"No!" tutol niya sa sinabi ko."Hindi lang yan ang ibig kong sabihin. Sorry sa mga nagawa ko at sa gagawin ko.Wag ka sanang mapagod sa kaaantay sa akin. Sana di ka magalit sa akin. Antayin mo ko huh?"Pagsusumamo niya. nagtataka ako at nakakunot noo akong nakatitig sa kanya.

Nakakunot noo akong nakatitig sa kanya.

"A-anong ibig mong sabihin? Bakit may gagaw-" di pa ako nakatapos sa sasabihin ko but she interupted me.

"Lets break up!"