Finding My Soulmate

Chapter-4 Emotional Manipulation

Thank heavens. Just a few seconds more and I would have kissed him and ruined everything.

Mom called me for cake cutting and we went inside.

The days after my birthday went on as usual for everyone except me. 

It was now an everyday thing for William to come to my classroom during lunch break and get intimate with me. 

I initially felt excited about it but after sometime I felt like this is too much. We were still young and should not indulge in such things at this stage. We had our whole lives ahead of us. 

I tried convincing William to slow down but he wasn't listening. 

Every time I tried to stop him, he would get emotional and say no one loves him truly. Everyone just fakes it because his father is rich. 

He would say, I am the only one with whom he gets the feeling of true love but when I stop him from being intimate with me, he feels like I am also faking it. 

So just to prove to him that I am not with him for his money, I would let him do anything with me except going all the way. He had agreed to it.

I won't deny that I enjoyed this intimacy with him, but in a corner of my heart, there was a little bit of guilt but I ignored it. 

I knew that my heart was not in it, being intimate with him everyday like this but I have to make a little bit of compromise right ? That is what people do for those whom they love. I thought.

Love!! I had never told him that I loved him while he used to tell me everyday. 

He was getting too possessive of me day by day. He didn't like me talking to James and we argued a lot about it. 

How could I not talk to James ? He was my best friend since the day I came to city B. He had always been there for me. 

A year passed. I scored good in grade 10th final exams but it was nothing like me. I was the student who always scores 90% or above but this time I scored only 82%. 

Mom and Dad were disappointed but they didn't make too big of a deal about it and I promised them to study hard.

Now I was in 11th grade while James and William were in 12th. 

Next year, both of them had to leave for college.

I tried talking to William about his plans for our future but he dodged the topic. 

I convinced myself that he was avoiding me because he was worried about getting away from me and wanted to ignore the issue for now. So I was waiting patiently for him to talk about it.. 

We had our annual day celebration and I was rehearsing a dance with our group which included students from 11th and 12th grade. James was my partner in the dance while William was with another group of only grade 12th students. 

While practicing the steps, I tripped somehow and fell on James taking both of us to the floor. We fell on the floor with me on top of him and at the exact moment, William entered the room.

I panicked and got up. When I looked at William, he was looking angry. Very angry which I hadn't seen before.

“William please, stop. listen to me. I didn't do anything wrong. Just talk to me once.”

I was running behind him, on the verge of crying when he entered the play room. 

I sighed in relief because that wing was completely empty at that time. Everyone was in the other wing preparing for the annual day and I could talk to him without anyone listening.