Millicent Rei Celestia Firañez
sighed in relief when I finally finished the painting. It took me just one week to paint this..
It was just a simple scenary. It was a ocean with a pretty sunset of it. I can tell that I'm good with painting...
The details are giving.
I smiled with a satisfication. "Wow, ang galing mo talaga iha mag painting.." Puri ni manang. I gave her a sweet smile.
Inilapag nya ang orange juice na paborito ko. I drink it.
"Where's mommy?" I asked. "I have something to discuss to her." I added.
Nakita ko ang pagbawas ng ngiti nya ngunit kaagarang ding bumawi.
"Nasa business trip pa. Bukas ang uwi iha." Saad nya na ikibinagsak ng balikat ko.
I sighed. "Pwede po ba akong lumabas? Bibisitahin ko lang ang art exhibition ko.." Mahina kong saad.
Ginagawa pa lang ang aking art exhibition ngunit malapit ng matapos.
I major with art literature. At nakikala ako dahil sa pagiging bihasa ko sa pagpapaint ng kung ano ano.
Suportado naman ako ni mommy sa pag papainting but..I didn't feel it.. na para bang napipilitan lang sya.
I sighed.
"Hindi ko alam e, ang bilin lang saakin ni ma'am wag kang papalabasin iha." Mahinahon na saad ni manang
My shoulder loosen.
Minsan parang pakiramdam ko may nakatali sa leeg ko na hinding hindi ko matatanggal.
I nodded to dissmissed her and I went upstairs to my room. Ang malamig na hangin ang sumalubong saakin pagkapasok ko sa aking kwarto dahil bukas ang sliding door ko papunta sa terrace.
It's cold. That made me more a bit emotional.
I stared at the painting that my dad and i painted. Bata pa lamang ako ay hilig ko ng mag pinta. I idolized my dad for being a painter.
I was ten when I was first introduced to the art industry, gawa ni daddy kaya ako nakilala.. Kaya kahit wala pa akong exhibit ay marami ng kumocontact kay mommy dahil sa mga painting ko na pinopost sa Instagram.
I sighed. Nanlumo ako sa aking naiisip. I missed my dad. Dad and I used to paint on the terrace. On the living room. Lahat ng sulok ng bahay na Ito ay may bakas nya.
It didn't help me to moved on. Si mommy rin. When my father died on a car accident mas lalong naging busy si mommy sa kanyang trabaho.
She's distracting herself while me..I don't have something to do beside painting.
I major on fine arts. It was fine even though I was home schooled. I sighed.
Gusto ko ring maranasan ang mga nararanasan ng mga babaeng kaedad ko.
But I somehow understand my mom for doing this. She's scared that I will left her. She's scared that he will lose me like what happened to my dad.
Humiga ako sa malambot kong kama. This mansion felt so lonely and cold. Tanging mga maids lang ang kasama ko.
I was also forbidden to go out without my mom's permission like a teenager. I also wanted to go out so badly but when I sees my mom's face I suddenly felt guilty for wanting it.
I felt guilty just by thinking that I wanted to go out. Pero masama ba ang mag hangad na makalabas rin Ako kahit minsan?
Am I will be a bad daughter if I want that? I sighed deeply.
I hate that I'm feeling this way. After thinking deeply I immediately dozed off.
Pagkagising ko ay narito na si mommy. I was in my sating night black dress when I went downstairs.
"Mommy." I greet her with a smile.
She kissed my cheeks. "I heard that you wanted to go out so badly yesterday huh?" She asked with a cold voice that made me nervous.
Ilang beses ko na kasing sinasabi kay Manang Kung gaano ko ka gustong gusto lumabas. Nagsumbong ba sya?
I sighed softly. "Y-yes..if it's okay.." I mumbled softly.
She sighed. Hinila nya ako paupo at hinaplos ang aking mahabang buhok.
I sighed defeated. Here we go again.
"Mili. You know that you're allowed to go out but not anytime.." she said softly while brushing my hair.
Umiwas ako ng tinging. "But mom-" she cutted me off.
"Understood?" She asked. She always do this. I sighed.
I don't want this. I want to experience how to be free even just a little bit. My life is like a cycle. Kung ano ang nangyayari kahapon ay ganon rin ngayon.
Paint, sleep, eat, paint, sleep.
Wala namang mawawala kung sasabihin ko Ito kay mommy diba? I sighed.
"Mom, I wanted to go out. Please." Paglalakas loob ko. She frowned. Ngayon ko lang sinabi kung ano talaga ang gusto ko.
"Why? Was I'm doing isn't enough to make you stay?" She asked coldly.
I bite my lower lip to stop my tears from dropping.
Nanggilid ang aking luha. The pain on her eyes was evidence. It's making me guilty for asking it.
"Mom.. it's not like that. I'm sorry." I apologize. she sighed.
"Fine. But just this once Millicent a half a year is enough." She said that made me nod histerically. My smile is so wide that I can't stop it anymore.
My mom sighed. "But in one condition." She said. "What is it?" I asked out of excitement.
"I'll hire a bodyguard." The finality on her voice is uncontrollable. Napatigil ako.
Bodyguard...?
"But-" I was cutted off. "Take it or leave it Millicent. That's always my rule." She said.
I bite my lower lip. "O-okay. Thankyou mom." I said with a small smile.
Kaagad naman syang umalis para pumunta sa kanyang kwarto.
I sighed. "Its okay, atleast im free to go out even in a short period of months!" I cheered myself up cause no one will do.
Six months.. just only six months.
I smile in contentment. Buong mag araw ay wala akong ginawa kung hindi mag paint or mag bake.
I baked a cupcake and it's so delicious! I've done another improvement. I'm not that bad at baking huh!
Kinuha ko ang dalawang pieces ng cupcake at dadalhin sana sa kwarto ni mommy ng pinigilan ako ni manang.
"May kausap ang mommy mo sa opisina. Wag mo munang guluhin iha.." she smiled at me.
I smile. Right my mom is always busy.
Inaya ko nalang kumain si manang. She showered me with compliments that made me smile.
Si mommy kaya? Kailan..?
I sighed.
