it starts secretly, until everybody knows

Love song

I held my school certificate in front of Laura's face.
She smiled at it and said, "And you said you would get a C. You haven't even got an B."
I answered smiling, "When you have no expactations, you won't get disappointed!"
"Wise, but hell anoying words!", she answered and looked around. "Oh, there's my mom! See you soon!"
She winked at me and I smiled after her, running to her mom's car.
I looked around and putted my phone outside.
My mom had written me a text message.
Sorry, kiddo. I will come a little bit too late!
I looked around and saw how all other teenies got picked up until me and Matteo got left.
Why him? Haven't I suffered enough with heartbreaks this year?
I looked impatient around and couldn't see anyone.
It was so boring, that I even asked, "So are you going to ignore me?"
I just heard him sigh and got closer to him.
'Hel-ooo?", I said and winked in front  of his face with my hand.
Matteo sighed again and looked at me with mad blue eyes, "You think I am a bitch right? And an Asshole? So what do you want from me. I am going to stay away from you, isn't that what he wanted?"
I looked a little bit shocked but got me together really fast, "No, I wanted to stay friends!"
"We were never friends, Ivy."
I looked down and felt like someone would've punched me right into my face. Or stabbed into my heart. "Maybe not good friends but-"

"No", he interrupted me with a cold sharp voice, "I like you for ages, and only dated other girls to forget about you, but I can't. I realised you're the only one to help me forget about the you I know yet. Because I wanna know all of you. Fucking everything. How you sleep, what you think, what you feel, how u talk, how u taste and how you be yourself. And I try to not give a fuck about you. And I will, not give a fuck about you."
He got louder in the end and every word hit me so hard, that my feet feared to give away. But he was an Asshole, I knew that and that was the reason why would never be in any relationship with him.
But if he can be loud, I can also be, I thought.
"You want the truth?", I asked and didn't wait for an answer, "I would've done everything if you said that to me in second grade, but now I am older. And you're a selfish asshole, who only thinks about himself. And you know that and love that. But I hate that. And you won't change. So until you don't change, I won't be here for you. So I will never be here for you."
"I am not the asshole you think I am", he screamed and moved back a little bit
"Yeah, what are you then?"
"You don't even know me. You don't even know what's up in me!", he meant loud and I crossed my arms in front of me.
"I don't know the real you? Tell me the "real" you!"
"Oh, no, you will never meet my real me. Because you don't want to."
"That's correct. And I won't give up with my opinion, you fucking asshole!", I screamed and looked away.
Matteo wanted to anwer, but a car drove into the bus station and my mom got the great idea to say, "Hey, Matteo! Your mom told me, I should pick you up!"
I looked at him with a furious look on my face.
"Shut up", we said in the same.second and I went to my mom's car.