I downloaded this shit again
2023 - 2024
I failed to do the things I wanted to do back in 2023 due to some situations that led me to be disappointed and upset for the whole 6 months of it
Looking back at it, I was never there for some reason.
I think there were at least 2 photos of me and I had 50 more of them, I was wondering about putting them in an album if we fixed it in 2023 but I was immature and didn't communicate.
I'll break down the things I've planned that I didn't do in 2023;
- buy a handycam/ camcorder
- Make 3-4 short films
- continue drawing
- watch movies every weekend
I planned to do these things with someone but I was too boring and unfunny, making it a clear reason why they should have left me earlier.
Now, I'm friends with people that are so gentle that it makes me think sometimes that I'm such a bad person, maybe I'm being too rough with them with my words and strict actions.
I used to be gentle like them, I don't know how I ended up like this but maybe it's because it kind of protects me in a way that I cannot explain.
Now I've changed my 2023 plans, I don't have to do these with someone anymore but I'm still listing it down;
- still buy a handycam/ camcorder
- make mixed animations
- create big art projects (get out of comfort zone)
- get healthy
At least I can do this version alone now in 2024 since it has gotten peaceful for me.
Weird people are still messaging me but that's fine, they're muted and blocked.
school
Quarter 3 has started and I already wanted to give up because of this one member in the group I'm in.
I don't like him, I just want to choke and make him swa
