Lights from the lanterns cast mild shadows
Across the dark walls of my room.
I know that I've clearly had some battles
In this room of mine.
On a dark night,
I come to realize
All the things that
I have done.
From crying despite
The words of my friends.
To coming
Completely undone.
I've distanced myself
From many people,
Because of those times.
And learned that I am
My worst nightmare,
Despite all of the lies.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just a ghost
Roaming through spaces
Trying to find out who I am
I've been many places
Still I remain unknown
Yet I've been seen by many faces
And I walk alone
Because you can't find my traces
The light from the TV brightens up your eyes
It traces along your cheekbones
And leaves shadows on your thighs
I'll always remember how your face felt to touch
On a rooftop
I start to remember
You wore a black shirt
One day in September.
You always knew that
You enthralled me
You were so charming
You fueled my ember
I've let go of
so many people
Because I was distracted by you.
And I know cos
When you broke my heart
There was no one to fall back to.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just a ghost
Roaming through spaces
Trying to find out who I am
I've been many places
Still I remain unknown
Yet I've been seen by many faces
And I walk alone
Because you can't find my traces
Am I wondering or wandering through these memories
Am I just crying or dying because I can't feel my own pulse
Am I tumbling or falling down this wormhole
Am I just whining or trying to stop this impulse
Maybe after all I am a ghost
Lost and cold and sad and dead
I think I'm okay with that though
I'll just never crawl back out of my bed
