Handcuffed to him?

Chapter 1

Songs for this chapter:

Same Old War -Our Last Night
Eyes Wide Open -Sabrina Carpenter

Chapter 1:

Allie

Today, I am going to try and fight my problems instead of running from them. That's what I tell myself every damn day but yet I always run. Why can't I be like everyone else?

I pull on my light gray hoodie over my black tank top. I'm way to lazy to be like the other girls and actually care what people think of my clothes. I pull on my black skinny jeans with a struggle. Me putting on skinny jeans is like putting a hippo in shoes. It's difficult to make things simpler to understand.

I look in the mirror as I weigh myself and I sigh. I look down at the scale and see it reads 124.9 pounds. I am very under weight for a 16 year old but it's not my fault. I have a very fast metabolism and being very skinny runs in my family. Plus I'm short so yeah.

I pull on two random socks and look around my messy room for my gray vans. I sigh in frustration as I can't find them. I'll ask my mom to help me clean it later so that way I can wear my vans. I open my bedroom door and see my mom hugging my baby brother ,Gabe. He's 13 but he's still my baby brother to me.

I notice my blue hairbrush on the dining room table and I quickly grab it. My brother must have taken it from my room. I look at my knotted hair from sleeping and I brush through it. Most girls in my school would spend three hours getting ready for school but I prefer to wake up at 6:45 since I don't have to leave until 7:15. My hair goes down to my shoulders and is a faded brown.

My eyes are hazel and I look average if I do say so myself. I hear Gabe yelling at my mom about him losing his comb. Stupid boys and them trying to look decent for school. I ran back to my room and grabbed my converse. Quickly pulling them onto my feet I ran into the bathroom before Gabe could. I took my time brushing my teeth and putting on my eyeliner and mascara.

"Allie Christine Cole, get your ass out there and drive Gabe to school." I hear my mom yell. I roll my eyes and bite my tongue so I don't argue with her.

I grab the car keys to my old blue pickup truck. My family isn't exactly rich but we aren't poor. We don't get the luxury of being able to go out to eat all the time or getting expensive clothes. We live in a small 3 bedroom house with 1 bathroom. I love the woods behind the house though because that's where I can go when I need to think.

My dad he's rarely home anymore. A few years ago, he just kind of stopped coming home for a few days. He always comes home drunk or angry. I still love him though.

I get into my truck and see Gabe looking in the damn mirror again. I look at him and laugh at him. He's so worried about his looks that sometimes I think he's gay. I close my door shut and start up my truck.

"Gabriel Mathew Cole, stop looking in the fucking mirror and buckle your ass up." I say a little quiet so my mom doesn't hear me.

Gabe does as I say without complaining and I pull out of the driveway. As I pull into the middle school parking lot I notice him tense up as he sees a group of guys who look like trouble makers.

"Thanks for the ride Allie. Please don't forget to pick me up again." Gabe pleaded with me.

I smiled and nodded at him because number one I didn't mean to forget him it just happened. I was out for a jog and time slipped by me. I run when I'm stressed out. I reach in the glove box and grab my glasses. I look like a nerd but I don't give two fucking shits anymore.

I pull into the high school parking lot and instantly spot my best friend Clover. She's a little bit taller than me but she pretty average. I look at her outfit and shake my head. She's in a pair of shorts with a black shirt that says "Hug Dealer." In big white letters. She's something all right.

Clover is her nickname since she loves clovers. The day I met her she was picking clovers in the park at 4 a.m.

I get out of my truck and walk over to where she's standing near the school. I instantly notice her phone in her hand and her pissed off expression. I look at her and just lightly tap her shoulder.

"Did you hear about what James did?" I hear Clover say in amusement but I frown not knowing who James was. I shake my head confused.

"He broke up with Claire and she told everyone that she was pregnant but she's not she's just a bitch." She explained slowly because in the mornings I'm to tired for talking.

"So he made her take a pregnancy test. It came back negative." I nodded and leaned against the wall closing my eyes. Clover patted my back realizing that I hadn't slept well the night before. She's the only one who knows that the doctor wants me to check my weight once a week to make sure I'm gaining weight. I've had problems gaining weight since I was little and it's worrying the doctors.

I'm 5"6 and the doctors say I need to be at least 140 pounds because of my metabolism. I love food though like seriously I would marry food just so I could sleep beside it.

I hear the bell ring and go on to English since I don't need any books for English. Clover has Math first period and then she has English while I have Math. Tonight she's suppose to be going to her dads which worries me a little because her dad yells at her a lot and it makes her very upset and when Clover is upset she goes and she parties.

The girl in the photo to the side/above is Allie. Thank you guys for taking your time to read my story. I love you all! Stay beautiful my lovelies! <3