Depression Quotes.

76.

One more little thing. So all of this shit that you're about to see is about the flute. I'm in my second or third year of playing, and most people learn the piece that I'm talking about in their eleventh year of playing. Fourteen years old learning piece twenty two year olds learn. I got in the car and my mother told me that I had no choice but to play the college piece. I told her I couldn't, that I didn't have time, and she said that she doesn't care. I got into lessons and my teacher asked what my decision was. I responded, telling her that my mother said that I don't have a choice but to play that piece. She replied in a surprised tone and I was like, yep my mother sucks. I'm really stressed out about this. I have about two weeks to learn seven pages of music. Not to mention the difficulty of it. I can't learn it all, let alone memorize it. She also bumped my practice hours up to four. Four hours a day. I just can't do it. It's too much for me. I think they believe that I'm a lot better than I actually am. Anyone can play a piece, but if it is too challenging, then it is going to hurt the player rather than help them. That's what they're doing to me. My lessons teacher also says that I have to listen to it 24/7 and play along with it ten times a day and by myself 20, along with just fingering the piece constantly. I can't do this and have my marching memorized . It's just too much for me.