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Gone And Starting New

She did not message back. She knows that I am stubborn when I am like this. I hated being away from everyone. I went to sleep dreaming about how I could be cuddled in Hyunjin's arms right now. Instead I was here. In America. With no one.

Time Skip 2 months.

I had gone to a couple concerts without being noticed. Why was I trying not be noticed you may ask? Well 1. I still need space and 2. I was considered missing now. The boys asked stays and non-stays to keep an eye out for me. I was nearly recognized at least 3 times in 1 night.

I changed my mind and moved over to Japan. I bought an old abandoned house. It had 8 rooms. It was practically a manor. I fixed it up and quadrupled it value from when I bought it. I spent the last month fixing that. 

There was also a lot of land with the house. I fixed up the land. I made 4 of the rooms for us Stray Kids. I made 2 of the other rooms guest rooms. The other 2 are for future children. This may change in the future, but that was the plan for now.

I decided that I was going to go out for a drink tonight. I was having a harder time now then ever. The haters and anti's apparently thought that I was taking a break from the internet and social media because they have been going harder and hating on me then they ever have. I was getting fed up.

I grabbed my keys and walked out. I drove the car that I bought. It only took me an hour an a half to get there. It was in the middle of Tokyo. There were still a lot of people. I remember drinking at least 7 beers with some shots and other stuff.

I woke up the next morning naked in a bed with some dude who I did not know. I started to get scared. I started shaking. Suddenly flashbacks started coming back to me. Ones of me screaming in pain and trying to get away from him. 

I absolutely hated it. I started to scratch at my skin trying to get the "dirt" off of me. I felt dirty and used. The guy beside me started to move. I got up quickly and put my clothes on. I was disgusted. I did not want nor imagine my life to be like this.

I drove back home and immediately closed my gate locked it. Came inside and took several baths and shower with in the next 3 hours. I just starred into space for the next several hours. I woke up still feeling horrible. I wanted to go and be comforted by my members. Something in me said not to. I don't know why I listened but I did.

Time Skip 5 months

I have had a fever, double the appetite that I usually have and have been getting sick everyday. I am not going to the doctors because they will know who I am. I was scared and anxious.

I decided to turn on the TV and lay in bed all day and watch the news. Of course when I turned it on they were just talking about me gone and how the boys missed me. I still felt really bad. I decided that I would go back today. That is until I hear them say the most devastating thing I have heard in my life.

"We have just gotten news from Police Officers here in Sydney that the K-Pop star, Lee Felix's  family have just died from a car crash with a semi-truck. We will tell you when we have more news."

I just sat there. I turned around and saw my dad's car in half with a semi. There were 4 people with white sheets over them. I dropped everything and ran to the screen screaming at it like I am able to stop what was happening. Suddenly I got a call. I ignored it. It rang for over 20 minutes before I finally looked at the caller.

Rachael

I picked it up. Her and Olivia were crying on the other end of the phone.

"Lee Felix say something."