I used to love love.
I used to love seeing couples outside,
I wonder if they are met by friends, school, or destiny.
I watched movies and series over and over.
I cried at every rain scene, at every airport separation, at every "your mine."
I used to love having a crush.
I used to love romance,
I used to love any act of love, passion, and kindness.
Every "I love you" was pure.
Every "I'm here" was true.
I used to love love.
Now I just fear it.
I'm afraid to be lied to,
I'm afraid of standards.
I'm afraid that my face, my hips, my teeth, and my body won't let me be truly loved,
That every time I have to do something more,
That I'm never enough.
I'm afraid of love.
I'm afraid I'm never gonna love love again.
YOU ARE READING
THINKING ABOUT ME AT 3 A.M.
Poetrythese poems weren't written to be published. they are really personal and autobiographical, but I wrote them to find some kind of comfort. I thought that maybe I'm not the only one, searching for someone to understand me. So, if you do... I'm sorry...
