Why me?

Chapter 2- New Kid

"Alyssa lets go, your going to be late for school" my mom yelled from downstairs

"Coming" I said quickly, changing into an oversized hoodie and sweatpants.

This was the outfit I always wore so no one would make fun of my looks but I do get comments like, How is she not sweating in that summer, maybe she has scars she's covering, what a freak. I never really cared what people said to me, I've been bullied by everybody my whole life, I'm basically immune. 

I threw my notepad and pencils into my backpack, zipped it up and ran downstairs. I snatched an apple from our fruit basket in the kitchen so I dont pass out at school from not eating.

I then heard a loud car honk at the window.

"Okay mom I'm leaving now" I said. 

She just looked at me and went back to reading her book. "I love you", but no response. It definitely hurts knowing your own mom cant even say she loves you because maybe she didn't, maybe I was an accident and she always wanted to get rid of me. 

I notice my breathing is speeding up and my palms are all sweaty. No, no, no, I can't be having a panic attack right now. I took a deep breath in and started counting down from 100. 100...97...94...91...88. This was a technique my therapist told me to do whenever I have a panic attack just breathe and count back from 100 by 3s. 

I finally calmed down and ran outside to see my best friend Connor.

 I've known Connor since we were in diapers. We always did everything together. We would play together, eat together, and he was my biggest cheerleader. He knew how my family had been treating me so he always tried his best to be there for me. 

I saw him in his brand new Red Ford F150. I was going to open the passenger seat door when it was locked. As I was tugging at the door the window rolled down and there inside was Connor's girlfriend, Jenna. Uggg, I hated her so much. She is the worst person ever, she always thinks that me and Connor are a couple and tries to break up our friendship all the time. I never told Connor that I hated his girlfriend because I didn't want to hurt his feelings and well he was happy and I always wanted to see my brother happy. So I put up with her bullshit.

"She in the backseat where you belong '' Jenna demanded.

I saw Connor give me a I'm sorry for her smile and I just went to sit in the back seat. As soon as I got in the car Jenna and Connor started making out for like 2 minutes. Gross.

"Get a room" I yelled out cause I was so tired of watching them kiss. Jenna gave me a glare but I didn't care, it was actually fun to ruffle her feathers sometimes and there was nothing she could do about it because I was Connors best friend.

We finally arrived at school and we all got out of the car and started walking to our classrooms. I was in 10th grade and Connor and Jenna were in 11th grade. I was nervous. Connor is the only friend I have in this school and I would be separated from him for the whole day. He could tell I was scared because he turned around to look at me and said, "You will be fine, okay. If anything happens or if someone looks at you the wrong way you tell me and your big brother will beat them up. I laughed and hugged Connor so tight. Then he and Jenna left. I was all alone, in the ginormous school with no sense of direction. I looked at my timetable and saw I have math first period. I groaned. We would put math in the first period. I just started walking to my classroom when this one dude put his leg out and tripped me. I fell on the concrete and scraped my knee.

"HaHaHaHaHa, the freak tripped and fell, LOSER" the boy yelled.

All I wanted to do was cry why was I always the target for people. I just stood up and looked the boy in the face. It was Adam the meanest boy in the school. Of course he would mess with me he always does. I wanted to say something yell at him, stand up for myself but I couldn't. I was scared, afraid of what he or anyone could do to me if I did something so I didn't. I just walked away and straight into my class as everyone in the hallway laughed at me. Why did this stuff only happen to me? WHy was I a target? Am I just that easy? Why don't I stand up for myself? Why? Why? 

As I was thinking all these thoughts a boy walked into the classroom. I've never seen him around the school before so he must be new, and handsome. I've never had a crush on a boy in my life but this guy opened up something in me. 

He had gorgeous brown hair, with glowing green eyes. He was wearing a zip up hoodie with dark blue jeans with converses. I really liked his style. I wish I was confident to wear jeans. The bell rang and everyone has now entered the classroom. My math teacher this year was named mr. Smith. He went to his desk and told everyone "Class we have a new student, he's name is Wyatt. I want you all to be nice to him"

 Everyone started at him and I could tell all the guys wanted to be his friend and all the girls wanted him. I was kinda jealous but there was no way he would ever pick me, there's hotter guys and Im not even pretty. The teacher then told Wyatt to pick a seat anywhere in the class he wanted. I obviously sat next to one one cause people don't like me and I knew Wyatt would never sit with me. He started to look around the room and girls would be kicking there friends out of their chairs to make room for the hot new kid but he didn't sit with them. 

I was zoned out looking at the white bricked wall of our classroom when I heard a male voice come from beside me.

"Hi I'm Wyatt, is this seat taken"