Trans Series #1: Rising From The Ashes (On hold)

Prologue

Max.

They say that family, especially a mother, is the one who lights up our life. But how can I relate with that when I've never experienced having a complete family and a real mother in my life

Bata palang di kona naranasan o nakita man lang ang mama ko. My grandmother said she died right after akong mapanganak. How sad, right? She gave birth to me, but she died in return

And because of that from when I was a baby until I was eight years old, my Lola was the one who became a mother for me. She took care of me, fed me, and loved me

Pero sabi nga nila walang permanente sa mundo. Sa edad nayun ay sya ring pagkawala ni lola. Never ending flow of tears is me in that time. its just hard to accept that she's gone

But... As what katy perry says in unconditionally,  "acceptance is the key to be truly free" and she's right. Because right after my lola die i no longer get out from my tiny bedroom in our small house. Neighbors even just gave me food para lang may ma kain ako lola is no longer with me im just so young that time and i cant stand in my own. But when i slowly accept the fact that my lola can no longer get back because she's in heaven, i realized that i need to be more stronger to survive, which makes me free- free from all the pain and tears

And thanks to one of our neighbor who bring me to the "bahay ampunan". There, i felt again the family they've said marami kaming walang mga magulang at pamilya and we treated each other as siblings, sisters, and brothers. Meron din si nay saling na palagi kaming inaalagan at tinuturing naring anak at apo she's just like my lola pareho silang mabait, mapagmahal at maalaga

Though, hindi sila yung tipong kompleto at totoong pamilya ko but they're enough for me. They are my second family

Its been 7 years since i lived here sa bahay ampunan. And i am now 15 years old studying, 11th level of secondary high school

Many sponsors and big-hearted people are donating money in bahay ampunan para saming mga batang wala ng pamilya at wala pang kumukopkup. and im very thankful to them dahil sa kanila ay napagpatuloy namin ang pag-aaral namin

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"Ate max hali kana po kakain na tayo ng hapunan para din daw po maaga tayong makatulog skwela na po bukas diba?" Si ady isa sa mga kasamahan ko dito sa bahay ampunan

And you might wonder why she called me ate, its because she perceived me as a girl same as how i identify my self. 1 year ago i confessed to nay saling and to my all fellow orphan children here sa bahay ampunan ang totoo kung pagkatao, that im not straight and i want to become a woman soon

As time passed, i started to grow my hair and drink hormone like what other transgender does. And now i can say that i looked like a girl but not that really, since im just a beginner

"Sige tara" sagot ko naman kay ady at nagpunta na kami sa kusinang bahagi ng bahay ampunan

Don nakita namin na nakaupo narin ang iba pa naming kasamahan at si nay saling at iba pang mga kasama ni nay saling ay busy sa pagluluto at paghahain

Maya maya pay completo na kami dito sa kusina mahigit 40+ kase kami ditong mga bata sa bahay ampunan

"Oh sya kumain ng mabuti huh? At matulog ng maaga dahil bukas na ang pasukan" si nay saling ng nilapag nya na ang mga pagkain sa hapag

"Opo nay" sabay naming sabi at agad ng nagsimulang kumain

After we eat ay isa isa nadin naming ginawa ang mga task na naka assign samin. Yes we are not prince and princess here thats why we orphan childs decided to make a group and assign each group para sa mga gawaing bahay

I just do my task to wash the dishes and clean all the dinning table at pagkatapos ay nagtungo na ako sa kwarto namin. Theres a lot of bedroom here in bahay ampunan and each bedroom is good only for 5-7 person thats why we use a bunk bed upang mas magkasya sa iisang kwarto

Tomorrow is the opening for the class-first day of class. Thats why i just get ready all my things so that i wont be late tomorrow. I really really dont want to be late since it attracts the whole class attention and i dont want that. Pagkatapos sa ginagawa ay napagpasyahan ko nading maligo a half bath rather

And after, a little bit story and chika time pa ang naganap samin ng mga kasama ko sa kwarto bago kami natulog. And i make sure that i've set my alarm para maagang makagising bukas

                           

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