Lemongrass

8 0 0

by LolisMeow

by LolisMeow

Life starts after college

It's a phrase I've heard from places around

Your high school years are the best years of your life

Your college years are where your life begins

All these monikers, they make you wonder, what is life, where is it? Can you feel it?

I don't feel alive, but maybe because wherever I go

I can't find it

Before high school, I wasn't even aware I existed

All those memories, they were someone else's

During high school, quiet

In the marching band, at a football stadium

Crowded

So loud

I can't hear anything

After that, three years of silence

We learned through screens we would have learned better through

If we didn't have to wake up at the crack of dawn and pretend to listen to an older man or woman teach something that we forgot how to care about

They said they accepted others, but there wese no examples

Those that were, peers, safety nets... I didn't feel like I belonged

Now in college... I hear others full of life

Joy

Peace

Trust

I still have yet to feel my own life start