This tea specifically smells like lemons for an unspecified reason

Myrrh

I want to be fully naked.

While that may be a statement regarded as immature or vile, that's society telling you what is wrong that exists in forms that are ever-present.

I want to be fully naked in front of humanity.

This isn't a statement of exhibitionism or nudism, there may be an element of free spirit though.

It isn't humans themselves I want to be in front of, laid bare, perfections, imperfections, but no lies and suppositions, but human nature.

I don't wish to be perceived or judged, yet I want to be in existence to be judged.

I wish only to be judged for what truly matters, not of class, race, gender, sex, supposition, power, prestige, wealth, potential, or any other human constructs.

I wish only to be judged for my worth as a human, without any meaning from society.

For my lack of emotion, my inability to shed tears.

My fragile heart and overwhelmed ears.

For those I've connected to, with unconditional love.

Truly unconditional, no matter the cost, like a friend, like a lover, even a divine.

I don't want to be restrained when I am judged, I would be to judge my own worth.

On my own will, I fall in a shadow, unwatched, only observed by a construct of nature, not of humanity.

Yet that construct is humanity itself, at the moment of its creation, but not the moments that it created.

To be judged on one's own will is to trust.

To trust is to love, undyingly, unwaveringly.

Yet humanity has tainted trust, in that it can be broken, conditional, tarred, trashed, traumatised.

I can love everyone as a human being, but I cannot love everyone as an identity.

But maybe that's all that matters.

Maybe we aren't to be loved just for what we are, but we have to earn it by who we are?

Humanity, where did you dream such a lie?