ermmm for some reason my dad wanted to argue with my mom over something ( dunno what cause they were just yelling like the bitches they are in indonesian )
i can't
i really can't
they do this every several months but this just feels more painful than the others before
dunno why it just does
on the verge of breaking down in tears but refuse to frfr!!!!!!!
loud
everything is so loud
ngl the urge to pull a monika from ddlc is real but i still wanna talk to ppl on here so i'll try to refrain from now on
my dad took this phone for a sec so while they continued arguing i tried reaching for it to vent here but my brother got mad at me cause he thinks i'm not taking this all seriously
i just don't like sticking around for pointless negativity mk mate there's a reason i use humor sm n it's cause i'm trying not to reach my breaking point
one time when my mom went outside during an argument n my dad n bro went to get her i had a small lil breakdown
i think that was the first time i let it all out like that during a huge argument
i managed to stop before they came back tho cause i would die of embarrassment if they finna saw me cryin like that fr
ik i say stuff like ' imma kms ' as a joke before but now i can't tell if it really is rn
aaaaaaaaaa i wish i could js sleep n forget about all my worries all day long or even leave this world but then the chances of not being able to talk to anyone online ever again is low n iiii aqejbfwobfpwbxobaodbenfoabdoabdobwcobekcb!!!!!!!!
i really wanna add some humor into this cause again i hate negative stuffies but my thoughts are js done atp-
wait
o wait i think i teared up a bit hol up
k nvm
i'm working on some silly art rn to calm myself down n hopefully distract me from my real life n i'm rlly hoping that they stop at some point cause i don't think they know about my intrusive thoughts n problems yet n i don't plan on doing so rn
ermmm cya ig
gonna go send love to my followers cause they deserve it much much much much much more brb <3!!!
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