Damien (Neo) Brown
Shanti left me on read. I was a little pissed. So i decided to call her a hour later.
Shan💚... connecting
"Hello?" I said putting my phone on speaker phone.
"What do you wantttt?"
"Naw, cause you know I texted you and you left me on read like I'm a bitch or sum?"
"Bruh cause you used meeee."
"How did I use you Shan?"
"So since you wasn't using me, why everytime you had to talk to me, you was high. And when you wasn't high, you didn't talk to me. Or when you took advantage of me." She said making me mug the phone.
"Bru, you getting all this shit from Ariana and I know it. Like bruh what?"
"IM NOT GETTING SHIT FROM ARIANA. This coming from my mind bruh."
"When did I take advantage of you?"
"I was high off my ass, could barely walk in my fucking house, and you drug me to your car. You drove me to an empty parking lot. And you had sex with me. When I haven't had sex with nobody. Ever. You took advantage of me. And you know it."
"I never knew that. You never told me you was a virgin."
"Me telling you to stop wasn't enough?"
"So you think I used you because I fucked you?"
"That's not what i'm saying. I'm saying you used me emotionally. When I needed to talk to you, you were so nonchalant. But everytime you need to talk, day or night, sleep or awake, I was there for you. I let you wake me out my sleep and cry to me about your crazy ass girlfriend. And that demented ass baby. I let you do that because I thought we felt the same way. I thought the energy would be reciprocated."
And when she said that, all I could think about was the TikTok sound, "Good thing she don't get paid for thinking."
"And you never communicated none of this with me. You went straight to social media. You went to Youtube and made a whole ass video, and drug me. People calling my phone, texting my phone, death threats." I said looking at the phone as if she could see me.
"Bro, how the fuck are you gonna turn this into being about you? Like you're so narcissistic. I hate that for you, your girlfriend, and your child. I really do. I wish you the best in life for real."
"Fuck you mean 'wish me the best'? We doing this shit together. The hell."
"You literally tryna be with me when have a GIRLFRIEND! Like are you not thinking straight. Stupid ass boy. Get the fuck off my phone dude."
"Aye chill the fuck out. Cause we still cool. Always gone be cool. And I'm not tryna be with you. I am with you. You told me I was yours, and you agreed when I said you was mine."
"I was fucking highhhh!"
"Man whatever. Like I said. You not going no where, Shan."
"And like I said. Get the fuck off my phone." She said actually hanging up this time. I laughed at the phone. I started sharing my location with her and a couple minutes later she started sharing it back. I smirked.
"She know exactly who she belong too." I said getting off my bean bag. I grabbed my phone to call up Zac and get shit right with him since he really tripped on me the other day.
He ain't answer. I decided not to call again cause I ain't wanna seem like a lil girl.
I started thinking about what Shan said though. Her and Ari was right. I was using her. And I loved it. But it wasn't in the way it seemed. I really do love Shan, I just got a weird way of showing it.
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Ashanti Myers
"You're stupid as fuck. I know it wasn't that easy." Ari said looking at me through my iPad. "And why you went on mute. I wanted to hear."
"Cause I knew he was gone say some stupid."
"So what did he say that was so stupid."
"Something that cannot be shared with virgin ears."
"Oh bitch. You have sex and think you hot shit?" She said making me laugh.
"Alright suh." I said still laughing. "I'm hungry."
"Yeah bitch you doing all that laughing, you might need to laugh yo ass to the clinic. Pregnant ass bitch."
"Baby if i'm pregnant, this baby gone see a hanger and vinegar."
"Simple. Mwah, no babies." Ari said making me laugh. And then she started laughing. But laugh's started turning into forced chuckles.
I began thinking back to that night and tried really hard to remember if he had came in me. She seen I had stopped laughing and asked me what the matter was.
"Bitch I don't remember if he nutted in me or not." I said lowly.
"Um, yeah. You want Dre to come get you real quick?"
"Can we go tomorrow? This too much..." I said moving my iPad to the other side of my bed. "I'm finna take a nap."
"Okay, love you."
"Love you." I said putting the covers over and and I turned towards the iPad.
