Y/N'S POV:
I sat at my bed and looked at the window, tears stream down my face as i remembered what they said 3 days ago
FLASHBACK
3 DAYS AGO"Ms. L/n, I'm sorry to say this but you won't last a month" the doctor said
It's as if someone poured cold water on me
I froze on the spot, eyes widen and my hands were shaking
"... T-That's a terrible j-joke t-there d-doc..." I said, my voice is shaking "R-Right? D-Doc I-It's a j-joke right?"
The doctor looked down
"I'm so sorry Ms. L/n, but your body is starting to get weak, your disease is getting worse, you might never have a chance on surviving the next heart attack" The doctor replied
Tears flood down my face, i grabbed the doctor's sleeve and knelt down
"T-There must b-be some m-medicine that c-can help right? O-Or maybe a s-surgery?" I said desperately
"I'm sorry Ms. L/n"
My hands slowly slipped down, i hugged my knees and cried
"I may take my leave" the doctor said but i didn't care
END OF FLASHBACK
Since that, i haven't go to Fyodor's room For 3 days, i couldn't face him in my horrible state
*Sobs*
"I'm scared"
"I don't wanna die"
Then his face appeared in my mind, my hearr hurt more
"I still wanna spend time with him"
I looked up at the window, i saw that it's snowing outside
"Winter is here..." I mumbled
I looked at the snowflakes falling down, somehow when i look at it, they manage to comfort me everytime
A chuckle escape my lips a bitter chuckle
"Such a bad time to fall in love"