Yana's POV:
Today was going to be a good day. I keep telling myself that because I need to believe it
Good day.
I arrived at the clinic where I got my medication re prescribed being that the old ones have finished.
I might be paying my doctor to illegally prescribe it even though I were only to be on them for 2 weeks and have been on the for basically three months today.
It's not an addiction, it's a coping mechanism that happens to not be in my best health interest.
Anything to numb the pain thou
I expected Zhan and I to have a longer night last night, but Porty came and whatever him say goes eno, but at the same time; I wanted to be much more drunk than I were. I might go back out tonight since Zion is working late.
I hate being sober, alone with my thoughts
Ishmael reaching out to me because of his own guilt than my well being.
There isn't anything to distract me, hence the reason I needed to get the prescription.
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After taking 5 of the tablets in one go even though the package said consumption of more than 2 within a 6hour span can be harmful
That didn't matter, no amount of pain would be worse than the voices in my head
The sound of doctors and nurses scrambling about, trying in vain to get something that they already lost. The countless "Everything will be fine" being constantly sang close to my ear by the person I loved, who was so dear to me, who had seen every inch of me in my most vulnerable forms, my everything, the person I love.
The person that couldn't love me the same
*FLASHBACK BEGINS HERE*
"Yana take deep breaths and do what the doctor says" Ishmael coached.
"I can't do it, she isn't ready" My cries echoing through the operating room.
"Miss I'm sorry, I know it is scary, but you seriously have to take deep breaths and try to stay calm" the doctor instructed.
Crying but complying, I was already losing my relationship, how unfortunate would I be to lose my child?
Taking deep breaths, I did just as told. Pushing with everything me
"You did it, beautiful Miss-"
"Why so silent" I wondered. The most terrifying and akward silence taking place of all the voices that echoed across the room a second ago
A look of fright and sadness washed over Ishmael's face
"Why isn't she crying?" I yelled as tears clouded my vision
"WHY THE FUCK IS SHE NOT CRYING" I weakly held my stomach as I laid back and wept
"She needs to cry" I looked in his eyes as he held my hands tightly offering a sense of comfort
"I need her to cry" I was breaking up between words as I bellowed causing a major disruption to the once silent environment
A Week Later
I had to bury my child, while she got to do doctor's appointments.
I had to cry, while she got to be smile about her growing baby.
I lost my first child, but he had another on the way, so he didn't have to feel the way I feel.
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