Only God Can Judge Me

Chapter 20

"Daddy let's ride horses", rylee yells pointing to the ride.
I sit down and let them run off.
They raced there but Rylee won because pac "fell".

I watched her yell in joy the whole ride.

When they got off we eat and what not.

*****

"Alright baby , I'm going to the fight with suge", don't wait up.

I nod my head.

"Why do you always leave us", I ask.

"Not tonight ", he groans.
He grabs his things .

"Have fun with Kiesha and Surge", I say mentioning his ex wife's name just in case he thought I didn't know.

He turns around.
" We gotta start talking to a therapist about our problems", he says.

I chuckle.

"How about a lawyer?" I say walking upstairs.

I hear the door slam signalling he left.
Rylee's at jada's so I'm alone.

I lay in bed and drift off asleep.

*****

"Again jada ?", I say slipping on some jeans.
Once again, Pac got shot

I call mama afeni , and I call mom to go pick up Rylee from Jada's house.

I get in my car and drive to the hospital.

"I'm here for Tupac Shakur", I say.

She gives me the room and when I get there I see Mama Afeni , Jada and Pac's crew.
I greet everyone.
"He wants to see you", mama afeni says.

I nods as I walk in.

I immediately gasps. He looks horrible.

"Kadryn come here", he says.

I walk over to him.

"I ain't gone make it . Take care of Rylee. Give her what I never had".

"Pac stop , you scaring me."

"Fix that picture frame Kay", he says .

"Pac? pac!" , I shout.

Jada's POV

I hear Kay shouting and I close my eyes.
Damn it.
The doctor looks at us.
"I'm sorry".

Kadafi walks Mama Afeni out and I walk into the room and grab Kay.

"Nooo , I'm sorry Pac", she shouts screaming.

We walk outside and press are all over us.

She still crying loudly as me and Kadifi carry her to her car.
I take her keys and drive her home.

The whole way there she screamed and begged for this to be a dream.

When we plopped I'm the living room , I close my eyes and let the tears come.

I hold a crying Kay in my arms.

He's gone. Forever.