Going back Phaya took a shower and threw himself in his bed exhausted.
"Tharn, I miss you , I miss your smile ,I miss your voice, I miss our happy days . I miss you Tharn" Phaya murmured while his eyes closed and finally fell asleep.
"Phaya , ya, Phaya, wake up what are you doing ? What kind of manager are you huh ? Tharn needs you . He asked me to tell you that you will both meet at Dean caffe "
"What?" Phaya opened his eyes and found himself staying on a chair in front of a stage and Mirae , another manager was shouting at him .
"What are you asking what ? You really fell asleep while your star was working hard . "
Looking around Phaya didn't understand what was going on . He knew this was a dream but was looking so clear ,then he remembered... "Where did you say Tharn is waiting for me ? "
"Dean caffe " the young lady said and Phaya rushed there letting the young one flustered on her place
It didn't matter if it was a dream or not , it didn't matter if it was not real , everything Phaya wanted right now was to see his Tharn again so he ran afraid that he would wake up without having the chance to see him .
As he reached Dean Caffe, Phaya scanned the crowded cafe, searching for Tharn. And there he was, sitting at a table in the corner, a smile lighting up his face as he saw Phaya approaching.
Phaya's heart swelled with joy as he reached Tharn, their eyes locking in a silent understanding. Without a word, they embraced, holding each other tightly as if afraid to let go.
In that moment, Phaya knew that even if this was just a dream, it was a dream worth holding onto. And as they sat together, sipping their coffee and talking about everything and nothing, Phaya felt a sense of peace and contentment wash over him.
For in that moment, all that mattered was the love they shared. And Phaya knew that as long as they were together, nothing else mattered.
"Phi are you ok ?"
Seeing Tharn being worried Phaya changed the subject fast. "I just missed you "
"You didn't look like you were missing me a few hours ago when I was working and you were sleeping ." Tharn answered mockingly.
If it was a few years back , he would get really annoyed by the young one's behavior but right now just hearing his voice made him happier than ever. It was the voice he wished to hear so much for the last two weeks.
"I always miss you Tharn, even when sleeping or awake , I always miss you so please, please I'm begging you don't ever leave my side ." Phaya said grabbing the young one's face shocking him.
"Phi..."
"Promise me "
"Promise" Seeing the older one being in a bad state of mind Tharn promised and Phaya looked like he relaxed a bit.
"Phi , seriously, are you ok ?"
"I'm ok, now I'm ok" Phaya answered smiling, touching Tharn's cheeks tenderly making him shiver again.
"Phi Phaya..." Tharn called softly seeing him coming dangerously closer to him .
The call was supposed to make Phaya realize that he is to close but instead of that made him get closer.
"Phi , don't do this " Tharn wishpered looking around, and Phaya remembered, he was at fault when everything started .
He was kissing Tharn outside and those crazy fans crushed him . If he was not doing that Tharn would be ok now .
It was his fault. Looking around Phaya moved away from Tharn leaving some distance between them.
"I'm sorry, Tharn. I shouldn't have let things go so far," Phaya said, his voice filled with regret.
Tharn looked at him with a mixture of emotions in his eyes. "It's not your fault, Phi "
"I'm sorry" Phaya said staying down on the chair and asking for a coffee.
"Phi Phaya, you are behaving really strange"
"Am I ?"
"Yes " Tharn said looking at him worried.
"I'm just tired" Phaya answered having a taste of the coffee that just arrived a moment ago.
"Should we go home then ?" Tharn said but with his voice a ring was heard between and Phaya knew it was the end .
"Tharn, I lo...." He wanted to tell him that he loves him before everything ends but it was too late . The alarm he set before going to sleep sounded loud and his eyes opened instantly making his eyes get wet in a moment.
Getting up from his bed, Phaya washes his face .
Looking at the phone, he didn't see any new notification from Phi Mock, so chronic fatigue gripped him again.
When will it all be over?
When will Tharn come back?
When will it be possible to see him in reality and not just in dreams?
A lot of questions occupy his mind and with heavy legs he took the keys from the table and went to the car to reach the hospital.
It was not taking a long time for him to reach the the building when he saw Phi Mock standing outside, waiting for him. Relief washed over Phaya as he hurried towards his friend.
"Phi Mock, any news?" Phaya asked anxiously.
Phi Mock shook his head sadly. "No, nothing yet. But we have to stay positive and keep hoping for the best."
Phaya nodded, trying to push away the feelings of despair that threatened to overwhelm him. He followed Phi Mock inside the hospital, where they went to visit Tharn.
As they entered Tharn's room, Phaya's heart ached at the sight of his boyfriend lying unconscious on the hospital bed. He reached out and took Tharn's hand, willing him to wake up and come back to them.
"I'm here , Tharn," Phaya whispered, his voice filled with emotion. "Please come back to me."
Phi Mock placed a comforting hand on Phaya's shoulder, offering him strength and support. Together, they sat by Tharn's side, hoping and praying for his recovery.
As the hours passed, Phaya felt a sense of determination growing within him. He would not give up on Tharn, no matter what. He would be there for his boyfriend, through thick and thin, until they could finally be together again.
"Phi Phaya , are you ok , I'm sorry Phi, I promise I'll come back to you soon . Please don't stress yourself too much na. I'm sorry Phi" Tharn said approaching the two but the only one who heard him was Mock . If he would still be a human then at this moment seeing the state of his loved one he would cry bitterly , but right now he didn't even had tears to fall.
He wasn't dead nor alive , he was stuck in between as a ghost. He could only watch helplessly as Phi Phaya continued to grieve for him, not knowing that he was still there, unable to communicate with him
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The Love We Long For
Fanfiction"Nong , I know you are in pain, still I can't imagine how much pain you can have in your heart all these years. The truth is we never leave you nong, it was because of the shock we had we forgot everything. We were not as strong as you. I'm sorry fo...
