How can this shitty Dazai... how can he! Chuuya wraps himself around his blankets and cries, his tears more like a stream of water, he had never cried like this before what's happening to him now?
Back to Dazai, he doesn't knows what to feel now, his both ashamed, and sad, but he does know Chuuya is strong enough to carry himself. He came to Odasaku's grave, sat there in a curled up position and said in an almost whisper..
'Hey, Oda, how are you? I hope your doing great, I failed another suicide attempt today! That's sad isn't it? You know I met my ex-partner today, Chuuya, still the same old him the same arrogant, cocky slug... hey Oda do you think, I should be ashamed? Because I feel both ashamed and sad, what do I do, Oda?' Dazai whispered, he leaned his head on the gravestone, thinking about the wonderful times he and Odasaku had. After all, Odasaku's the first person who didn't see him as 'The Demon Prodigy' but rather 'Dazai Osamu'.
'I just want happiness, is that too... too much to ask for?' Dazai said, as tears flowed down his cheeks, his crying genuinely after a long time, 'Ah, how long has it been since I genuinely cried? I feel so..nice'
After some while, Dazai tossed the flowers, and got up, he smiled at Odasaku's grave - waved goodbye and left.
He tried to forget that this day even existed - first meeting the person, who he actually cares for, then crying genuinely after a long time, it was just too much for him to digest today.
That's for today! Next chapter soon coming!~
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A losing game - Soukoku angst
AcakA soukoku angst-more likely a 'Dazai angst' Everybody thought that Dazai was a cruel person, abusing Akutagawa and all, but did anyone look at him like a human? !Arts or pictures not owned by me all credits to the rightful owners! ~DollOfAzarath
