realizing that I always said I can't go was because I hated myself so much and never because my parents wouldn't let me, I never told them I was invited to anything,thought that I didn't deserve happiness and all because I wasn't like the others. I truly hated myself and I still kinda do. I watch those silly movies about highschoolers having the time of their life, going to parties, having a relationship. I didn't have that, that part in my life is empty. I wonder how my life would've been if I let myself go out and enjoy my life. I could've been so happy and living the teenage life of my dreams if I didn't restrict myself the way I did just because I thought I wasn't enough.
