the dark side of light

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Time passed and Lance didn't care if he lived or died, tho he wasn't doing it consciously he was embodying the galra ideals, Vitory or death. On a mission he nearly lost an arm but between Coran and the pod he kept it, it took ages to get it back to full strength and since then he had to have a mouse with him at all times. When Zarkon killed Shiro he went to face him one-on-one, Hunk stopped him but got an ice-cold stare "Tsuyoshi Garrett. Let me go. He needs to pay!" Hunk froze "How do you know my real name!" Lance sighed "I know Pidge's too. Katie Holt only joined to find out what happened to her family. Her father and brother were on the mission with Shiro and never returned. Me, her, and Keith all lost people close to us the only difference is they have the chance to get them back. I lost my parents and the planet to this man's temper tantrum cause his favourite toy was taken. You have no idea how we feel. If you went home you still have a loving family, food on the table, and people that understand you. We don't, Katie lost the family she was close to, Keith's only family left is a blade, and he just lost the man that raised him after his father died and me." Lance laughed and ran his fingers through his fringe and sighed "I don't even have my sanity left. I lost that when I found out my people were how I was staying alive" Hunk let Lance go "It might be true I'm the only one here that didn't lose someone, that still has a home to go to but that is why I'm trying to be the level here. Lance think! What can you do that you didn't try in the last 10,000 years? Shiro got through to you when you were willing to die for us. We are a team and you need to remember that, we won't let anyone die if we can help it" Lance looked down "I saw my dad in him... That was something my father would have done." he muttered and Hunk just about heard him "Alfor?" Lance nodded and went off to his room. He left his bayard with Hunk cause he didn't trust himself.

It wasn't long after that Lotor was brought in and Lance saw red but Blue wasn't letting him in "Blue come on girl! You know this whole time I just wanted to kill him and his dad why now" Blue spoke to him in his head "Due to the loss and your temperament you are better suited for red." Lance went white and fell to his knees "I can't... Dad he..." Allura came up behind Lance and sighed "Red is waiting. Hunk gave me the bayard." Lance looked up as tears flowed from his eyes like he had opened the floodgates "I can't Alla... Dad is probably in there, and I know he won't like the me I became" Allura helped Lance to his feet "Lance. It's cause of you we have info to take on the empire. Yeah, you're damaged but other than Hunk we all lost something" Lance wiped his eyes and went to Red. As soon as he set foot in there he heard Alfor "My baby boy. The strength it took to survive this long and the dedication to do what was needed isn't something to be ashamed of. My weakness and hesitance to act led to the situation you are in now and cause of that I'm truly sorry. Can a battle-hardened altean forgive his kind-hearted father?" Lance nearly got sick and used the com "Did anyone else hear that?!" Allura nodded "Father?" Lance ran to the nearest restroom and cried and puked till Keith found him an hour later unconscious and blood in the toilet. He picked Lance up and brought Lance to his room and went back to the others "Lance needs a therapist! I found him passed out over the toilet after puking up blood and he looks like he was crying himself to sleep." Coran went to check on Lance and left water there for him

Lance woke up a few hours later and saw the water, he couldn't even make a sound. he got up, went to the pod room, set one for a check-up, and got in. When he checked the results he went to get Coran. He was in the common room with the others, Pidge looked to Lance "Oh look it's the veteran that lost his lunch over a ghost" Lance covered his mouth and glared but just grabbed Coran and brought him to the pod room. Coran stopped him "Kid what are you doing? Why aren't you taking?" Lance looked over to the computer and pointed, Coran went over and went white "You tore your vocal cords, can you talk or make noise" Lance shock his head "Get back in I'll do a better scan to see if there's any chance of recovery" Lance went back in and hoped it wasn't permanent. Just his luck it was. Coran called a meeting to discuss it "Pidge you might want to apologize to Lance." Pidge shrugged "Why? He has been fighting this war longer than the blades and he lost his shit overhearing his father's voice. Some of us would love that" Coran smacked Pidge "He 'lost his shit' as you put it 'cause he was there when he Alfor died! He damaged his throat so badly last night that he has permanently lost his voice." Lance was over in the corner wanting just to curl up and die but Keith came over to him and signed 'Do you understand this' Lance nodded slightly and signed 'I can hear just fine and I can read lips so tell Pidge unless she wants to feel the business end of my bayard to shut her mouth about my dad when hers cared more about ice samples than his own daughter' Keith looked to Pidge "Katie watch what you say. Lance might have lost his bark but his bite is worse than ever"

(Low-key savage Lance and censor Keith are perfect for me. it tickles my brain in a good way)