(Tasha's POV)
I woke up the next day in a creative mood, I got my guitar and went to the venue and asked the staff if it was OK for me to sing for a while on the stage and they gave the OK! I walked onto the stage and got my guitar out and began! I sang a couple of songs until my thoughts of yesterday at the park came back and so I found myself singing the song that reminded me of my parents!
Oh, dear mother, I love you
I'm sorry, I wasn't good enough,
Dear father, forgive me
'Cause in your eyes, I just never added up
In my heart I know I failed you, but you left me here alone
[Chorus]
If I could hold back the rain, would you numb the pain?
'Cause I remember everything.
If I could help you forget, would you take my regrets?
'Cause I remember everything.
Oh, dear brother, just don't hate me
For never standing by you or being by your side
Dear sister, please don't blame me
I only did what I thought was truly right
It's a long and lonely road, when you know you walk alone
[Chorus]
If I could hold back the rain, would you numb the pain?
'Cause I remember everything.
If I could help you forget, would you take my regrets?
'Cause I remember everything.
I feel like running away
I'm still so far from home
You say that I'll never change
But what the fuck do you know?
I'll burn it all to the ground before I let you in
Please forgive me, I can't forgive you now.
I remember everything.
[Chorus]
If I could hold back the rain, would you numb the pain?
'Cause I remember everything.
If I could help you forget, would you take my regrets?
'Cause I remember everything.
It all went by so fast;
I still can't change the past
I always will remember everything
If we could start again,
Would that have changed the end?
We remember everything, everything.
As I finished the song I heard applause and looked up to see Ashley standing there along with Jinxx who is smiling at me! I wipe my eyes of the tears and smile at them as they walk over and hug me.
“Tasha that was amazing, you never told me you could sing like that” Jinxx said as we sat on the stage and Ashley sat down beside me.
“Well for one you never asked and you guys are the first to actually hear me sing,besides Bianca, I don't think I’m a great singer but I just love singing my emotions, its like my therapy” I said as Jinxx nodded as Ashley took my hand in his.
“You have the best voice I have ever heard, and I'm glad I finally got to hear you sing, by the way who was that song about” Ashley said as I looked at Jinxx and he nodded and left me and Ashley to talk,I turned to face Ashley.
“The song was about my family, they disowned me for being who I am, the clothes I wear, the music I listen to all that stuff, I was 16 so I was too young to live by myself so I lived with Bianca and her family for 2 years until I turned 18, I work 2 jobs to pay my bills and rent” I said as I turned my face away from Ash as I began to cry, I felt Ashley turn my face to him and wipe my tears away.
“Well its their fault they couldn't see the awesome person that you are, and how much you mean to everyone here including me, you have changed my whole life for the better tasha, really before I met you I just bedded a different girl every night but now, you make me want to be the best boyfriend I can be” Ash said as he kissed me and smiled.
“I love you Tasha, and its ok if you don't say it back I just wanted to tell you”Ashley said as I looked at him in shock and happiness.
“I love you too, Ash” I said as we Kissed and both smiled into it we spent another hour or so talking and playing songs and just being together.
We made our way back to the BVB bus to see everyone ready to watch a DVD so me and Ashley joined the guys for a couple of hours before they had to get ready for another show .
We all walked backstage, as all the girlfriends wished the guys good luck, I helped Ash with a little lipstick on his cheek, his way of having me on stage with him he checked it in the mirror and smiled before Kissing me.
“Thanks babe its awesome, Love you” Ash said as he kissed me.
“Love you too” I said as I kissed him back just as the guys got called to the stage to start the show.
“OMG, did I just hear you two say the three words to each other” Bianca said as I smiled s she hugged me
“Yeah, you did, he told me earlier today and he heard me sing too” I said as Bianca told the girls and they hugged me congratulations!
Yes I was in LOVE with Ashley and I couldn't be happier!
