a written apology to the guy i killed in fortnite

im so sorry

I, Charlie Peequil, would like to formally apologize to the person I just killed in fortnite. You trusted me like no one else did, and I took advantage of that. I was filled with glee when you saw me from across the pond and started jumping and crouching, and when you crossed the water just to reach me, I knew we had something special. I knew that there was something special about you. You weren't like the other ranked players- you still had a heart. A soul. Something warm radiating from beneath the exterior of your fortnite skin. You still knew how to love. And I loved you. I don't know what came over me while we were emoting on that island in the center of the pond. I don't know what possessed me to sneak behind you with my frenzy auto shotgun and absolutely blast the shit out of you in the back of the head. I will be plagued with guilt and regret until the day that I die- a death that, unlike you, I will deserve. I don't know what you saw in me when we met in that fateful game. I'll never know why you trusted me the way that you did. Maybe I was still innocent, then. I remember seeing your loving eyes from across that pond, feeling your energy gravitate towards mine. I want to say I loved you when I first saw you. My heart tells me that I did. My heart tells me that I still do. But one who loves, does not destroy. Not like I did to you. I lured you in, let you think you were safe. Loved. And then I stabbed you right in the back. I betrayed you, the only one I ever loved. I betrayed you, and I ran away like a coward. I've never felt so guilty in my life. I've never felt as destroyed as I felt when I saw that eye, hovering over my health bar. You were still there with me. Watching. And you watched until the moment that I died. I saw it. It was the last thing that I thought about- the reason I stopped running and let myself die. My sacrifice, in honor of you.

I don't expect you to forgive me. I don't even want you to forgive me, because I don't forgive myself. I don't think I ever will. I just want you to know that, from the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry.

Forever yours,

- Charlie Peequil