Left Alone | Marksana x Taemina

Chapter 2

Sana's POV

It's been a week since Taemina told us about them dating. I'm still not used to it but I have to keep forcing my smile otherwise the members will notice something wrong. It's not that I don't want them to worry about me but it's because I know they are going to think I'm some evil self centred bitch that wants to break them apart.

I'm definitely not happy for them but I'm not like that. Hopefully the members know that too. Maybe eventually I'll be able to confess my sad love story and not be labelled as a homewrecker.

I think I'm doing good at suppressing and hiding my feelings. I mean I'm no actress but I still seem like the happy old me right?

I would be lying if I said that I'm not hurt by seeing them together though. Everytime they hold hands or hug or even just smile at each other, I look around to see if anyone heard my heart crack. I say heart but it's more like sand now with it being crushed so badly.

All of the members support them and maybe I need to start doing that too. But it's so hard to not cry over my reality. To hope that one day I will be the one back hugging Tae or exchanging warm smiles with him. To hope that one day Tae will be mine.

1 week later

It's funny. It's been 2 weeks since they went official and yet I'm still crying over my lost fantasy.

I still cry myself to sleep every night and still send death threats to Mina in my head. I know I'm being stubborn and mean but I just can't help it. It could have been me in his arms not her.

All the members have seen them make out and even go to each other's dorms. The walls are thin and we aren't that deaf. At least I can drown the screams out with my own sobbing.

Every new day that passes makes it harder for me to keep smiling, laughing and even breathing. I've tried to be blind to their love filled looks, but I always catch myself staring at them, wishing that one day I too will be able to feel that love. Tae's love.

Onces always ask 'is Sana gay?' but never 'is Sana ok?'.

And the sad truth is I'm not. I'm not okay. No matter how hard I try to cover my puffy eyes or constant spacing out with lame excuses like 'I'm tired', if you look closely you can see that's a lie. My once radiant smile now doesn't even reach my eyes. It just twitches and trembles. I'm less clingy to members now and just more distant to life in general.

I'm not okay, but hopefully it still looks like I am.

Nayeon's POV

I was just scrolling on my phone when I saw a weird article pop up.

'What happened to TWICE Sana?'

I've noticed she has been a bit strange lately. She always stays in her room and doesn't go out much anymore. She's way more quiet then our usual bubbly Sana but she said she was just tired and nobody wanted to question her more. Maybe she was just having a bad week.

I clicked into the article now quite curious.

'TWICE's Sana has been noticed by fans to be looking very tired lately. According to onces she 'isn't as clingy and looks like she has been crying' fans wonder what has happened to her and some speculate that she has been rejected by another idol. They say 'her smile looks fake' and 'she doesn't interact with her members anymore'. Do you believe something has happened to TWICE's Sana? Nobody knows what is actually happening to Sana but we wish her well and a speedy recovery.'

Shit. She has been more gloomy lately and it started after Taemina announced their relashionship. I hope this article is lying but we still need to talk to her.

I sent the article to the group chat and wrote 'meeting?'

Sana's POV

I was woken up by a ding from my phone. Ughh this better be serious. It was from the Twice group chat. I almost slammed my phone back onto the table. One of the members probably just sent a funny meme or random text which I wasn't in the mood to look at. But a text caught my eye. Nayeon unnie had asked for a meeting so I knew it must be serious.

I opened the article that she sent but I regretted doing so I soon as I saw it. "Shit," I mumbled, "onces noticed." As much as I love onces this was not good. I would definitely be scolded but worse questioned and then I would have to reveal my crush and all hell would break loose.

I rolled out of bed and made my way into the living room waiting for the chaos to begin.

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Author's Note
Stream ☆I got you✧
TWICE is so talented
Thank you for reading :)