saving Wynter.

7.

Fatima-

it's been three weeks and no sign of Wynter anywhere...i feel empty. i can barely get out of bed. barely get any sleep! i'm up worrying if she's hurt? scared? crying? cold? hungry? but the main thought i have...what if she's dead?

whoever took Wynter hit Zac behind the head and knocked him out. he was out for an hour.. when we told him what was happening he went crazy.

we looked everywhere for her...we went to Heather house all her stuff was gone. the landlord said he put her out a month ago.

there posters around the city with our child face on it...my daughter is missing and i find it weird that no one seen that person face at the park.

i've been sick to my stomach for the past two weeks...i can't keep nothing down. i'm super tired. i don't know if it's because i'm depressed about not having my child, or is it because i'm pregnant.

...yep i said it, pregnant. Zac made me take a test cause he noticed my symptoms and my hormones been kicking my ass. when the test showed positive i couldn't believe it.

i tried everything in my power to be happy and excited but i couldn't. it didn't feel right...my daughter is out there somewhere missing and i have no clue where she is. and now i'm pregnant with a baby...i feel like i'm replacing Wynter in a way...

today is our first doctors appointment for the baby and i'm somewhat happy to see the baby and hear the heartbeat so that gives me some type of joy.

"Babe you ready?!" Zac says coming in our walk in closet. "why you not dressed Fatima?" he asked looking at me.

"i can't find nothing that's comfortable, everything is either too small, makes me uncomfortable or it's makes me too hot" i complain as i sat on the floor going through my clothes that i threw on the floor.

he looked at me and shook his head. "Fatima really?" he asked and i nodded. "how about you wear some joggers and a shirt, a jacket leave the jacket open" he suggested.

i grabbed my pink juicy couture jump suit and put it on. "i like this, it's so comfortable" i say looking in the mirror fixing my hair with my hands.

"see, you look beautiful" he said kissing my lips. "now can we go? we about to be late" he says softly and i nod.

"yea let's go" i say grabbing my white tote bag off our island where the rest of my everyday purses were.

the car ride there was pretty silent which is something that's been happening a lot lately...well ever since Wynter been gone. we just don't have anything to say. our car rides use be fun. playing music. singing disney songs with Wynter. playing i-spay. it's just different now...

making it to the appointment we signed in and the nurse took my blood and made me pee in a cup then we waited in the waiting room until the doctor was ready.

Zac was reading one of the books they had in the waiting room. 'steps on taking care of a newborn' he seem really interested in the book which warmed my heart.

"i barely see you read anymore" i joke looking at him, he looked at and smiled. "i try to but since Wynter isn't here it brings bad memories so i barely do it" he says.

that's where we both went silent. tears instantly fell down my face. "i'm sorry i didn't mean to make you cry" he says giving me a hug.

"Zac i miss her so much" i cry silently into his chest. i didn't want people in the waiting room looking at me, so i hid in his chest.