STOIC

Fear

I remember when I was a kid I used to be afraid of the dark, I would always cry until my mother put me to sleep, and I remember one night there was a storm outside and I was so scared I kept crying all night, the sound of the lightning struck my heart, then my father came to me and told me "don't be afraid, you're a man and men have no fears, men never cry !".

Since that day I never cried at night, I never got scared of the dark or anything else, and each time I feel like something is making me feel weak or holding me back, I remind myself that I'am a man, I can't let anything make me feel weak, I became stronger and indestructible.

Until I grow up and the man who gave me that strength became the one who took it away from me, I fear nothing but him, no one and nothing else could make me feel weak but him.

Now I sleep at night with a scarf covering my eyes, because I can't close my eyes, I'm too scared of closing them and all the images of bad memories flashing in front of me, I'm too scared of drowning in my tears, I can handle the voices because I deal with them all day long but the images I can't, that's why I keep my eyes open looking at the dark seeking for its help to make me fall asleep.