Before I met you|| #2 Alessi series

Chapter 18

I hate my own guts.

I pretended my love for you

I flinched every single time when I thought about it for the past month. I shouldn't said it to her, but I knew this day would come one way other.

I wanted to the document and break up with her on normal terms not like this. The tears that I saw in her eyes meant that I failed as a human.

At this point I didn't want to read the document at all.Those nine years were the best years in my life, she showed me why I should love her but I was the one that broke her.

I couldn't keep tabs on her, I was living not knowing if she was doing okay. Lorenzo was doing his job too good by keeping her under the radar and not showing anyone about her.

I was doing shit on the other hand, buried my head in work focusing more on it than before. The Italians broke their alliance away with me, I understand why.

I had to move on with my life even if it meant without Ilana. I broke her heart in a way no one dared to do.

I scramble through my papers as I let a frustrated sigh, I hear my door opens. I wished so many times that it will Ilana that walked through that door. But every single time I was disappointed by someone else entering the room.

"Li." Fabiola says as I didn't care to look up to her. "I'm pregnant." I snap my head to her.

"Who is the father?" I say as she crossed her arms.

Fuck she's twenty one and now pregnant but some dude. I stand up and walk over to her angry boiling inside me.

"I'm not but now that I have your attention, what's wrong with you?" She says as I sigh out of relief.

"It's nothing, don't bother me. I have work to do." I tell dismissing her, she didn't bother to make a move.

"Do you want to talk to Il-"
"No!" I yell at her. "We broke up." Her eye brows knit together before she realises it.

"What is going on." I ask her looking at her.

"I just saw her at the mall with a man, apparently they are going to marry in a few months." She says as my heart sank. I feel like I'm going to faint, I sit on the closest chair and try to progress what I heard.

She moved on from me and was going to marry someone else. Did she even love you Li? I'm not the person to fall in love that's right I'm not even going to find a woman that loved me like her.

"Who?" I ask desperately.
"I don't know but she told me that I will be one of the bridesmaids." She tells me. "I know what you did."

"Don't you realise that they might killed our parents." I tell her pointing out the fact our parents were murdered.

"Oh and that's her fault but so you want to know a fact." She looked angry. "It's your fault, that she has to marry someone. It's your fault that you fell into this hole. It's your fault that she." She doesn't finish her sentence. She takes her stuff and leaves me here wondering what .