Unscentable

Chapter 5 - Unscentable

Piper POV

Piper woke with tears falling from her eyes, she had not had a dream of him in years, not one where he was touching her and kissing her, couldn’t get enough of her like he had done that one night they’d spent together. But it ended now, this time with him biting another, Marking and claiming another and it hurt so bad, even dreaming of it was tearing at her. Pulled the pillow over her face to muffle the sobs that racked her body, until they stopped, held that pillow tightly to her face so that Brandon wouldn’t hear her and get worried that something was wrong with her. She had not dreamed of Bradley Drake in near 5 years now. Had pushed him aside with all she had, with all they had, she and Harper. It was not healthy to think about something they could never have. Now how they should have
been able to have him, not as their Mate. Thought they had moved on, now it seemed that they had not. Seeing him had only brought them pain and anguish and now they were back to square one it seemed. Crying over what was not theirs, would never be theirs.

They had lost him long ago. Hell, they had never had him to loose in the first place. Not in that sense, he’d looked right at them yesterday and there was not a single ounce of recognition in his eyes. She had lived inside his pack for 21 years, and for 4 of those years he had been her Alpha and still he couldn’t see her, couldn’t even recognize her. She had pledged her loyalty to him as all did, though she had not known what he was to her then, but he had said her name, looked right at her and accepted her pledge. Hell, the man had trained her warrior class once a month from the day he took over, and he had
bumped into so many times over the years, even after she knew what he was to her. Still, he did not recognize her.
Cursed by the mood goddess it seemed. Got out of her bed, the sun was barely touching the horizon and as she stepped out onto the balcony, trying to let the freezing cold morning air freeze her heart into a numb state that felt nothing, caught a glimpse of movement off in the distance. Turned her gaze on it, Harper moved forward to lend the use of her sight “Wolves.” she stated and then receded back into Piper's mind.“Do you want to go for a run?” Piper asked her wolf.

No.” was the only response she got. This was how it had been for nearly a decade now. Harper had not shifted in nearly forever. Just didn’t seem to want to. Never explained why, didn’t really have to, Piper knew that she likely no longer could shift to her wolf form, it had been too long, she’d given up. To demoralized and in too much pain at the time of her deciding she didn’t want to shift anymore. Harper no longer wanted to be out there, didn’t want to be anywhere near her own kind. Just lived inside of Pipers mind, could push forward at will and talk at will but did not shift to her grey and white wolf anymore. Had stopped doing that before they had even left the pack and gone rogue. Hadn’t shift since piper was 20 in fact. Maybe she would once again start to shift when Brandon shifted for the first time, perhaps she would want to run with his wolf, when he got him. Piper did hope so. She recalled her very first shift to Harper, it had been on her own at 16 under the full moon just 4 days after her birthday.

Didn’t have anyone around her at the time, no family her mum and dad long passed. So, no one to really talk her through it, though she had listened to others about their first shift when they had talked about it. Heard it was going to be painful and could take a while that first shift, but it got less painful with each one after that until your wolf could just rip out of you at will in pretty much less than a minute. She’d seen it too.
That day had been very liberating for Piper and Harper had been with her for nearly a year before it, had been able to talk to her for a long time before her first shift, she didn’t think that was normal, but it had been nice to have the company. They had shifted and then Harper had run about in the pack's woods on her own for many hours, chasing rabbits and other animals, digging at burrows had even gone for a swim in the pack's river rolled around in the dirt and generally been really happy about being given full control.