"Can I try this?" Khao sit beside First
"this nintendo or me?" First said without looking at Khao
-He always flirts with me but never look at my heart-
"Stupid! your mom should name you as 'flirts' and not 'First'" Khao smack First head then take th...
It 8 o'clock I heard a car parking inside my house, I look out the window saw my parents already come back home. I open my bedroom door after hear a knock from outside. It was my maid asking me to go downstairs eat dinner together.
Before going down I texting Khao inform that I will talk to them today, we always eating in silent because my father is very strict and will be mad if there is noisy while eating. Prom already finish his eating then get up to go kitchen but my father tell him to sit down again because he want to talk about something.
"me and mom decide will move out to New York because I will handle a business at there. Prom you will stay with us and change high school at there" My dad said a shock information, Prom argue that he want to stay in Thailand
"No, mom I want to stay here with Phi First" Prom show a sad face while hugging mom
"yes dad, let him stay here. he is more comfortable live here right son?" Mom carressed Prom cheek
"No one will stay in Thailand until the business problem settle." My dad said with a firm voice.
"but father has promised to let me study here?" I replied in a very shocked voice, this is not what I wanted
"First, I really needs your understanding, our company here has gone bankrupt and many debt collection are looking for me. This also for the safety of you and our family" dad answered in a very soft voice.
Dad is not like mom, dad has forgiven me about the accident that happen towards my sister a long ago but mom will never forgive me so I am very close with dad than mom.
"You should be thankful that you still have a father who is worried about your safety! Father told you to study abroad and you don't want to, father told you to do the family business and rejected! What do you want to be! It's troublesome!" Mom scolds me for my decision, sometimes I don't understand what's on her mind. Am I his child? I haven't felt a mother's love in a long time and I admit that I missed that so much.
"Am I troublesome? I never disobeyed mom and dad's requests. mom never congratulated me even though I got very good marks in study and sports! did mom ever ask how I feel? mom ignored me for years but I'm patient~ please for a once be on my side" I tried not to raise my anger but I was very disappointed with my mom words, I never hate her even she said a bad thing to me.
"phi calm down~ don't be like this." Prom came to me and hug from the side then I looking down at my fidget finger, I unable to see my mom face who was holding back her anger
"ungrateful! you are better dead than your sister!" after those words came out from my own mom my tears flooded in my eyes, I quickly wipe it with my hand
"why you hate me so much mom..." I said with a holding back tears then I heard a slap sound from in front of me. the slap was from my dad to my mom face. Me and Prom is shocked with day action
"enough Kana! you have gone too far! our eldest son who helped us a lot. don't you ever say that my son is better off dead!" Dad replied very firmly
"argh! he is not my son! and will never be my son!" Mom slammed the table so loud then quickly walked upstairs to the room.
"First don't ever hate your mom na. If you sit here no one can look at you and your safety is very dangerous. If you continue studying in Japan, you will receive many scholarships from the university and father's close clients." Dad patted my shoulder gently then went out to the back garden to smoke a cigarette.
"phi~ how could mom said that to you.." Prom said with a crying so hard
"haha why you are the one crying naa" I stroke his tears and ask him to go bedroom and sleep. I don't want my brother to think about adult problem, he is too young for this. Every time we have a big discussion in family, it always ended with an argument or crying.
My mind is so messy right now and I will tell Khao about this tomorrow. I hope he can accept my decision for my family. Prom is sleeping with me today because he will get a nightmare after family have a big argument today.
I waking up Prom in the morning and tell him to go to school but he insist don't want to go because he feel bad since yesterday. He inform me that he will follow mom and dad to go New York because he don't want their family broken. He is so innocent and I hope he will not hold any revenge in future.
Prom said he will broke up with his girlfriend because she is cheating on him and it the best to move on in New York. Mom and dad already go to work in the early morning, I stare at the offer university in my hand then throw it in the dustbin near me. I starting my motorcycle engine then saw Prom stand in front the door.
"Where?" Prom asking
"Khao house.. can not follow na" I said while wearing helmet
"hmm~... phi Khao will understand you.. and don't keep your burdens to yourself" Prom advice his brother because since yesterday he saw First trying to cry but he like to keep it alone. First nodding while show his straight teeth then wave a bye to his brother.
I already arrived at khao apartment, I staring at the sky that slowly turn into yellow plus orange. after leaving the house, I stopped by my housing estate thinking how I should be honest with Khao about what happened yesterday. Until I didn't realize that the sun had started to set behind the gloomy sky like I was feeling now. I knocked on Khao's door but didn't answer.
"KHAO! HELLO!" I screaming Khao name because I already texting phi minnie and she said Khao in the house. Then I heard a small step from inside the house, when the door open I saw the smile etched on his small lips, I knew I was bad because that smile would turn into hatred today. I hope he will accept and understand that I have no choice.
"Hey~ my big meow!" The warm hug that I will never feel after today then both of us go inside the house.
I put the glasses on the table that Khao give it to me previously. I rub my hand together because I feel so nervous right now, Khao hold our hands together on his lap.
"its fine na~" Khao suddenly hug me, I know I cant hold this sadness feel anymore. I failed. I failed to be strong infront of Khao and the tears I've been holding back since yesterday finally collapsed in front of my lover. I repeated a words in my mind many times - I am sorry Khao
Can I lie and just run away from this?
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I hate myself for write sad/angst story again🥹
my reaction when realize I make FirstKhao crying again 💀
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