I'm so fucking tired of nobody choosing me
I know and love so many people but nobody ever picks me
I'm no one's favorite
Nobody would choose me in a room full of people
Nobody
Call me a bratt
Call me self centered
But any time I ever want anything it's always pushed aside no matter how small it is
My parents love my siblings way more
All my friends have better friends and would rather hang out with someone else
I feel so alone
When I'm sad I don't have anyone to talk too
And everyone I fall in love with get stripped away from me
C found a bf
AC can't talk to me
Im not allowed to talk to Red
CC has a great relationship
Pink is straight
I can never find love, nobody will ever put me first
No matter how hard I try
I'll never be good enough to be someones #1
I wish I was like those people that have people to talk too
People to love
Please, if someone will think of you before anyone else, don't take them for granted
One day they might think of someone before you
I miss back when everything was good
When my parents didn't have 0 respect for boundaries and privacy
I miss when I was able to just do everything I wanted
I just want those days back
I want everything I had back
The world is always blurry now
I'm overweight cause food is my only comfort
I'm always over sleeped or under sleeped I
I'm useless
A mistake
Unhealthy
Fat
Tired
Always sick
Dizzy
Everything hurts
Everyday hurts
My head is always banging
I just want it to end
But I can't
I wonder if anyone would miss me if I was gone
Nobody would
Momma trys her best but shed choose.so many more people then me
I'm a nobody
The person I love most thinks I'm annoying
I know she doesn't know it but she thinks I'm annoying
I miss when I was in Red's bio for being his #1
I'm nobody's #1 anymore
Miss when I could talk to Red
I miss everything about them
Even the bad memoriers
The arguments
The talks
The pauses
The crying
Everything
They were my everything
I haven't been able to grieve over loosing them yet
I'm finally realizing it
I'm crying while writing this
It really hurts
My head is throbbing
My hands are shaking
I just want it to end.
