Ken x Ryan pt.2

Wednesday

I wake up in a sweat. My heart is beating, and I can feel myself gasping for air. My forehead is moist, and the gaps between my toes are sticky from the sweat. I turn over to look at the time. I open my phone and the blue light blinds me. I squint my eyes trying to focus on the time, but all I see is me kissing Barbie in the background. Suddenly I get reminded that I need to break up with Barbie. I shrug the thought away and focus on the time again. 03:48, I put my phone down again and let out a big sigh. I try to close my eyes but all I see are the big, black, eight-legged spiders. I abruptly open them again to get rid of the pictures. What do I do? If I don't sleep enough, I won't survive, the plans for today are building some furniture for the room and going to pick up the washing machines. And trust me building and carrying heavy appliances. I open my phone again 03:51, this is going to be a long night if I don't fall asleep. I try to close my eyes again and just let my thoughts distract me and without realizing it my body listens to what I want, and I fall back to sleep.

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"AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH" I scream, my heart is pumping, my skin is itching. It feels like the spiders are real, I try to shake them off, but there is nothing to shake off. I begin digging my nails into my skin trying to itch the feeling away, and I begin to hyperventilate. Get them off just get them off I scream and before I know it the lights are on in my room and Ryan stands in the doorway. He looks at me with worry, his brows are raised, and his mouth is at gape. I try to forget and look strong for Ryan, but I just can't keep it together anymore. I cry, the tears start streaming down my face while scratch at my irritated skin. My head pounds and I can't see anything because of the tears. It feels like the whole world is about to end, not only because of this feeling that I have to scratch and that I am literally seeing spiders, but also because Ryan is watching all of this happen. I know that the spiders are from my nightmare, but why are they there? Why am I seeing them? I feel like I'm going crazy and begin chocking on my cry. I open my eyes and despite the blurriness I can see red and I know that I'm bleeding, but I can't feel anything except the black insects on me.

A cold cloth is placed on my forehead, and I already feel my eyes closing, I am so tired and I have a massive headache from the lack of oxygen I got while crying. Warm hands wrap around me and beside the ringing in my ear I hear Ryan quietly saying that everything will be okay. I take a deep breath in and let my tense muscles rest. The warmth leaves and I don't have the energy to open my eyes, so I just simply let them stay closed.

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I open my eyes too a dark room. The duvet is the perfect temperature, and the pillow is cold and fluffy. My head doesn't hurt anymore, and I feel clean in a way. I turn to the side and look at the wall, green. Green? The wall is green, my wall isn't green the last time I checked. I sit up and realize this isn't my room, not my bed, not my warm duvet, and not my cold pillow. I look at the room in confusion and the door opens, I am lying in a new pair of pyjamas, in an unknown room. Ryan walks in and smiles, he must have understood my confusion and explains. "You had a panic attack and started bleeding from you scratching yourself, so when you fell asleep from being exhausted, I carried you over to my bed got you cleaned up, and let you sleep here since you got blood on your bed." I stare at him in shock, there are several things he said that made me just fall even more for him. 1. He carried me, 2. He came when he heard me screaming, 3. He washed the blood off me and 4. He let me sleep in his bed. I rub my eyes just to double check that this isn't a dream, but when I open my eyes again Ryan is still standing there smiling.