In a Love Letter

A Weird Yandere on the First Day

Most people were already there when I stepped into the classroom. Except maybe a certain girl, still prowling around the hallways doing God knows what.

Of course, I immediately sat on the anime protagonist seat by the window. I'm surprised that nobody's taken it yet. Lucky.

I killed some time by spinning my pen around aka making my pen fly, or doodling little cats on my notebook. I knew I came too early. Mom wouldn't listen to me when I said I wouldn't be late.

When one seat remained in the entire class, that girl finally showed up. She walked with her head down and bumped her hips onto a couple of desks before arriving at the last empty seat, the seat beside me.

That's right, not only is this the anime protagonist seat, it's also the immediate closest seat to where the actual protagonist sits!

Anyway, I've been observing her since she opened the classroom door. Bumping her hips onto desks, she's pretty unaware of her surroundings, huh? But I'd say it's also partly cuz of how wide her hips are...
Also, she walks with her head down and that gives me a pretty weird feeling, seeing the girl that could murder another with a straight face, but now is seemingly almost...flustered?

Is this what Aishi was like before becoming a yandere? I mean, I knew from her backstory that she didn't have any real connections with people but I thought it was in such a way where she was indifferent. But right now, she seems more awkward than indifferent.

Well, it doesn't really matter. Now that I've gotten a good glimpse, I have to start thinking of how I'll survive a year in this soon to be hellhole. After all, I could just be at the wrong place at the wrong time on a very unfortunate day and yandere girl might bitchslap me with a bat.

I still have a year before dear yandere-chan goes cray-cray though, I think I'll be able to figure something out by then.

Ah also, about going back to my previous world? I don't think that's possible. I already tried everything that might trigger such an event. At least, everything I could remember from the reincarnation and transmigration novels I've read in the past. Interacting with the main leads? No system popups.
How about when I realized that where I am right now is actually the world of a game? Nope, no google assistant voice was there to say that I'm its new host.
How about gaining some super magical powers so I can transcend physics and magically go back to my previous world? Yeah no, that sounds ridiculous.
After 16-ish years in this world, I've fully accepted that I won't ever be going back so the only thing I can do now is to survive and hopefully thrive.

Also, Dear Author, what kind of shit have you been reading lately to think these are even remotely effective?

Suddenly, Aishi side-eyed me who was still blankly staring at her. She probably felt my eyes on her. She glanced at me for just a quick second before looking away.
'Fucking creep,' she probably thinks.

I smiled with a little bit of selt-deprecation. I mean, what's a grown ass woman doing, simping over a 16 year old girl?

Anyway, as I was saying to myself earlier. After 16-ish years in this world, I've fully accepted that I won't ever be going back so the only thing I can do now is to survive and hopefully thrive.

Wait, I feel like I've said that before... This deja vu thing really creeps me out sometimes.

(Dear Author here, the 4th wall has been rebuilt!)

Aishi suddenly looked at me again, this time, turning her head towards me. I didn't have time to hide my smile of masoc-*ahem* self-mockery, so we kind of just looked at eachother with awkward faces. I think Aishi is trying to glare at me at the moment but since I know she's not any real threat right now, it almost seems cute, like a puppy barking at a bigger dog.

Still, she's kind of scaring me. Those soulless fish eyes feel like they're piercing right through me, and not in a good way. But maybe it's the fact that they look so glassy that I can't seem to look away from them, even when I'm scared. I wonder, if Aishi had those eyes in a limited edition color, would it shine in the sun and sparkle like diamonds gorgeously? Or maybe it would be like the vague and almost imperceptible pair of red eyes of my sleep paralysis demon in the dark?

Well, whatever it is, Aishi's eye color would remain the same, and I personally think the dead fish eyes have they're own charm. But Aishi already turned her head away from me and I can't look into those eyes with creepy intensity anymore so...

At least the teacher finally came in and started class. Other than introductions for people I don't really care about and talking about schedules, nothing much happened.

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It's been so goddamn long since I last wrote about this huh. Hope y'all enjoyed the chapter.