𝔉𝔬𝔯𝔟𝔦𝔡𝔡𝔢𝔫 𝔏𝔬𝔳𝔢

𝟷. 𝙸'𝚖 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚐𝚒𝚗 𝙼𝚊𝚛𝚢

POV: Kadence

Why do we have feelings?

Why do we have feelings to where we fall in love with the wrong person?

Why does that person happens to be my best friend since the 4th grade?

God knows that I hate having these feelings for my friend, God knows I do and why is that?

Because my best friend Roman Bernardi the most loved and popular guy known in our town is very and I mean very homophobic. His haterd is known towards the LGTBQ community that some who came out the closet had to move out of town because it was so bad with him that they couldn't take it anymore so no one since has came out in our school and I happened to be one of them who happens to be madly INLOVE with my fucking him my best friend Roman Bernardi

I know right it's horrible but like I always tell people you can't help who you fall in love with

As now I was in class taking notes clearly I was the only one paying attention to my history Ms. Cortez who was my favorite teacher she taught me a lot of things that have helped me in the past that I looked back and have learned from. I was going through a lot last year with my mom passing away and I almost did something that would have torn the people that cares for me a part and she helped me and showed me things that was worth it or a certain person actually who she knows i'm close with

But I was actually paying attention because we have a very important test coming up and people who knows me knows that school is very important to me and I want nothing but good grades

*RING RING*

4th period now was over so it was now on to lunch and boy was I happy.

I had to skip breakfast this morning because my jackass of an older brother rushed me out the goddamn house because he didn't want to be late to his new job that he started last week

but it wasn't my fault he woke up late and had to rush and get ready

So my little tummy was growling very loud that I swore when I past by this table i definitely got some weird looks but i shrugged at that and went to my usual table I sat at with my good ole friends

Currently my friends Amir and Daniel were aruging who has the highest body counts between the school which was gross

"I'm telling you that it's Roman man, stop being so damn stupid" Amir spat at Daniel

"it's not it's me i'm more of player then him" Daniel rolled his eyes as Amir sighed

Daniel wasn't giving up

"Yeah Daniel you fucking your fuck doll multiple times doesn't count" Amir replied

I chuckled at Amir as the rest of the group snickered trying to hold in their laughs

Daniel scolded at me "Why are you laughing virgin mary!" he said making me gasp and slapping his shoulder

"I'm in fact not a virgin" I pouted

"Yes you are a virgin' he said

"who is a virgin?" this voice says behind me , making me jump it was Roman

"This one right here" he pointed at me

Roman looked at me as he sat next to me before he look away laughing

I blushed from embarrassment

"Baby Virgin mary' Daniel said making the whole group brusting into a loud laughter

I pouted even more

I slapped both of them behind their heads making a whence sound come out of their mouths

"I'm not a virgin you assholes I have had sex before" I yelled within the group so the rest of the school didn't hear our conversation

But I have had sex before but I received ifykyk, it was a night one stand after my mother funeral I couldn't stay home so I went out that night and went to this club downtown and since Roman had connections I had my fake idea with me so no longer then 20 minutes later I was in the club and I went to the bar I had to get drunk I didn't want to feel this pain I was going through at least for a few minutes so by my fifth drink I was drunk and I just wanted to drink my problems away but by the time I was down with my sixth one this cute guy had then walked up to me and had asked me if I wanted to dance

I said hell yeah and we practically danced all night with me grinding my ass against his crotch moving my hips to the beat every song that played in that club

Baby yes I got rhythm

But then everything happened so fast we were now walking in his apartment kissing each other, tongues down each other throat, taking each other clothes off throwing it anywhere not giving a fuck, my hands exploring his body while his is exporing mines, then suddenly I was under him breathing hard and my heart beating loud in my chest i was indeed an inexperienced virgin under this God of a man. he asked me if I wanted this that we could stop now and just cuddle and go to sleep and he could bring my home in the morning but I didn't want that I wanted to feel love that very moment and not that pain that was seepng inside of my chest from the lost of my mom and the feelings for this person i know I couldn't have (the boy was the same age as Kadence!)

It was heaven he was gentle and gave me the best experience and even though I wanted it with somene different I knew that wouldn't have happen anytime sooner

A pair of fingers snapping in front of my face bringing me back to reality

"If your not a virgin Kadence who was it that took  your virginity and how come I didn't know about it, I'm your fucking best friend!?" He huffed out in anger

I chuckled

"Don't worry. about it, she is long gone" I lied as to the part about it being a female