24 Days

Loneliness is a mere mirage

I woke at 6 did my daily chores played with Shimna and went to work. The moment I reached I got too know a patient has caught a cardiac arrest we ran for immediate help. Gladly my senior Mr. Ranch is a specialist with cardiac problems he managed it. Although I have been working as a nurse for 1.5 years my heart beat still bursts the moment I hear an urgent case.

It was break time me and my friends were discussing their love life. One of our friend's boyfriend just gave her ring and asked to marry her in front of her parents. I think that's kinda cute but for me am a bit of shy person and would prefer it in some private place, another friend had a great night with her male BF (Best Friend) ya they are the friends with benefits people so that is an exception case. All teasing me for my loneliness and me defending myself as usual with the lines that my loneliness is just a mirage that will fade away with the emergence a village.

On my way home I thought a lot about will someone ever love me; I don't talk a lot and I get nervous while talking to men. Ik that is gonna be a long-term problem for me but I just can't help. While going home my taxi driver suddenly started a conversation with me asking what he should gift her wife for their wedding anniversary, I am not used to these types of questions but I answered it by advicing him to take her on a date after a movie. According to me couples should always have personal time and publicly showing off their love is just a mirage, this reminded me of my loneliness and again I thought that if I had a BF and he kissed me in public what my reaction will be will I be submerging into the pleasure of his soft lips with him having a tight grip around my waist or will I push him back, ofc I will not push him at that moment I realized that a relation can't be built by holding only one person's emotions and opinions it needs to be equally balanced, thus I reframed my sentence and asked him to have a talk with her about what she would like to do or he can plan a surprise on observations he has made since they are together. A cozy night with a partner would be proffered by any girl over ring or necklace according to me but ya some are "Gold Diggers"